Our Favourite Mistakes~

Today, i'm busy walking around KK to renew my ATM cards, buy a new handphone (second handphone in 4 weeks), set up a new cellular number, etc2...I'm a little tired and wired at the moment, so bear with me eh?

Erm, I've already put up my new number at the shout out segment so you can give me an sms when it matter most.

There are a lot...and i mean, A LOT! of things going thru my mind today...And i was thinking that, whatever happen to me this week, is only happening because of my mistakes...

Nevermind...

And to all my friends, please leave your number at comment...pliz..

New Ramadhan, New Affections~

Assalamualaikum...it's very rarely i start a new post with salam, really. Because i know some of my readers are not Muslim, and sometimes, the Muslims' friends didn't bother to answer it. See...

But I'm happy that the holy month of Ramadan finally arrived and I'm here, celebrating it with reciting Al-Quran, breakfasting with friends, Terawih prayers and many more. To all my Muslim friends, happy fasting and make this Ramadan your best Ramadan ever. Selamat Berpuasa dan Menjalankan Ibadah...=)

Apart from my current affection to Ramadhan, I've got two more new affections, writing and a new girlfriend. Well, this one is the serious one and if the time's right and I can confirmed the 'deal', I'll introduce her to all of you, my loyal blog-readers. Maybe some of you will be surprised, but I have a great feeling about this.

Enough with personal stuff, on with the public one. Word has it on the streets that sometimes I'm too outspoken in my writing, which is my blog. Well, what can I say? I'm Handhallah being Handhallah...It's aforementioned that, if you don't like what I wrote, simply don't read it again. Okay?

And one more important thing...this one is really important. A day before Ramadan, my hand phone and some cash had been stolen from my house. I would like to apologize to anyone of you who tried to contact me during this period. I'm simply out-of-reach at the moment, by hand phone that is. I'll try to sort this mess out this mid-week, but expect a new number from me, because my mother ask me to return to Celcom one more time after almost four years I've using the Maxis number. So, Maxis friend...sorry. =p

I'll informed you my new phone number, probably on the next post or just by mouth...And to all who have been supportive during this difficult time, thank you soooo much.

p/s: Maddy, i want and need another H really badly...=)

Antara Pandai dan Bijaksana~

I totally overwhelmed by Tun Mahathir explanations about AUKU acts, The acts that he introduced back in 1974, when he was a Education Minister. Yes, I agree with almost every point he make...yes, almost.

There are certain things that are absolutely right about AUKU. Back in the '70s, not many professionals came from Malay families, only the better-offs and really2 brilliant people can afford tertiary education. And those brilliants came with a scholarships from Government, and i believe until now it still happening. So, the AUKU was presented so these Bumiputras, which is very low in supposed admission can really concentrate on their studies, rather than 'wasting' their time on the streets demonstrating for this and that.

Now, some of us believe that the AUKU should be abolished, including me actually. Why? Simply because we just create 'pandai' bumiputras, not 'bijaksana' bumiputras. The varsities students should be both 'pandai' and 'bijaksana', not just 'pandai' only. I've seen many 'pandai' people in my life. They come from various type of families. Malay, Chinese, Indian, KadazanDusun etc2.But to find a 'bijak' person, that was rare finding, really.

How we evaluate 'pandai'? By type of courses, the degrees or masters or even doctorate, the careers, the status of job etc2. Can we evaluate 'bijak' in the same manner? Of course the answer is not. Some professors can only talk about maths and physics all day but they stuttered when it come to politics and the well-being of their respective races or nations. They are not Jack of All Trades, only master in one field doesn't make you a 'bijak' person. 'Pandai'...maybe.

Actually, I was wrong. Not just we've created 'pandai' bumiputras only, but also non-bumis. Just look at the Malaysian Bar Council. It is stupid to say them not 'pandai' at all. They're lawyers and some of them are formers public prosecutors, degrees came from Harvard, Stanford and maybe Lincoln's Inn. And most of them are non-bumis. Still they act very un'bijaksana' recently by holding a forum called "Memeluk Islam". Are you 'bijaksana' when deliberately hurting other people feelings?

Put this in one basic situation. You don't fart in public. Why was that? Why dont you just let the gas out? It's your rights, right? But by doing it, you will become insensitive, irresponsible and anything suitable to describe how annoying you are. And you will be downright embarrassed. See...

Back to AUKU acts. Why i really agree that the acts should be demolish is because...the student become afraid, by-books, no-life creature. You can learn how to be 'pandai' by books, by lectures or whatever. But, in order to become 'bijak', you need to mingle with other people, from other races, different walks of life, different age or generation gap to know what kind of community we live in. Not because of politics i wrote this but because in the sense that i responsible too when my colleagues only have life with books and lectures notes. Other than that, Naruto and Kreko and maybe girlfriends/boyfriends having a picnic at Simpang Mengayau. What a boring life when a student like me, at this higher-learning level should done more with community, make themselves better because at the end, i'm the part of the community itself.

i don't like demonstrating, waste of time. And sometimes the demonstrators themselves didn't know for what or for whom they demonstrated. What a stupid excuses to run from a lecture. I don't come to lecture, just because i don't want to. But i like to write or give public speeches, it shows that I'm full of substances and not just 'poyo', shouting at the streets. Then maybe people around me will evaluate my thoughts, give enriching comments. That, i really sure, will enrich my thoughts too. I'm just 22 years old for god sake, and an extend student. I'm not that 'pandai', but what i crave is to be humane, 'bijak'...That's what matters most. everybody can be 'pandai', given hard work and a time frame. But 'bijak', you learn in life. You cant be 'bijak' when you don't have life..Is it?

AUKU acts just holding students back from being 'bijak'...If you dont want the students to un'pandai' by abolishing the AUKU, preserved it, but with major reconstruction. Still barred student from entering Political Demonstrations, but leave them to speak, to write their thoughts out. We need 'bijak' leaders in the future, not just 'pandai' only...

Don't Get Me Started...

U know what...I hate UMS. Yes, u heard it right, I HATE UMS...Sorry to say, but if u are about to hire someone for a job..never hire a Sabahan. Period.

4 years i've been here and nothing's changed. The third-class mentality, together with third-class work ethic covered in a one big first class cover. It's like u are paying the business class seat in MAS for a seat in AirAsia flight...It is a case of style over substance, really.

People in Peninsula said that,"eii..untung ko kan...UMS kn lawa. Mesti hari2 pegi dating..", sorry folks but u are badly wrong. Being in UMS is such a hell-bent experience...being a state in an island (Borneo is a third largest island in the world), the weather is so unpredictable...u can have a burning hot day, rainy day and storm all in a period of 6 hours. And i always wish on that kind of day...i'll be cruising around in my car.

Unluckily, i can't use my car for now...so i have to take a bus ride. And a bus ride from IP is the one u really want to avoid, seriously. Because UMS is like every other varsities in Malaysia, so the intake of female students are rocketing up during these past few years...and usually, we need to lock in the battle to enter the bus at the peak hour.

U know what...female students are far more superior than their male counterpart...KAMI PULAK YANG MALU, KAMU TAU TAK?! They use their most valueable 'assets' to get us cornered. The bus driver, the luckiest bastard alive because doing no work at all and still getting paid at the end of the month, always being bias to us...male student. Ko ingat perempuan tu nak tidor dengan ko ke kalo ko kasi dia naik bas dulu? Such a dumbass.

And this morning, particularly 9.30 a.m...i snapped. I've waited almost an hour for a bus to come. Then i have to stand up along the way to campus. When the bus arrived at SST, the bus seems want to move quickly from that bustop...and some dickheads entering the bus like there are no people are left to get out...then..WOI, STOP LA MANGKUK AKU NAK TURUN!!!...i yelled at the bus driver. Whole bus was so quiet...the bus driver stared at me..F u la, sekolah tak tinggi...

And then...CAN YOU ALL WAIT TILL ALL OF US GET OUT FIRST, SUCH A STUPID STUDENTS...i cursed the lot who enter the bus without waiting for all people get out first...some are staggered, some still tersenyum2 macam kerang busuk...Ikut kan hati, rasa nak tumbuk pun ada...Don't think i couldn't punch u just because u are a woman...seriously. Ask Julie Dahlia...

So, moral of the story is...don't get me started...i'm a swearing enthusiats and become foul-mouthed when i'm very, very angry...Don't say i didn't tell you.

no guts, no glory...or is it?

:: why sabah is soooo hot? especially at the sea... ::

adoii~ this week supposed to be a very tiring one for me. kawan2 nak konvo, both in Sabah and Semenanjung. but since i'm in Sabah and currently i'm working on my experiments, i think i have to attend my friends who will be here...Amir, Rihanna, Uncle, Mat, Cheng and many more (there's too many...and i'm too lazy to write) will be here. Cadangnya nak grad sama2, tapi biasa la...aku kan kurang rajin...satu sem amek 15 jam kredit je...hahaha~

too many changes in this particular U lately. Gone are the days where every student had to run here and there just to meet the lecturers. Email trus...so easy and simple. No wonder most of the student are getting fatter...and i'm afraid that will include me as well. Not many people i know in this U anymore. Only a handful, and i'm more shy than 3-4 years ago. I dont know why...

For example. I never having tough times starting a chit-chat with stranger, especially women. But this sem, i feel i'm so shy to communicate....kalo nak cakap dengan member pun balik2 beterabur je ayat. And now i'm staying in Indah Permai, that oh-i-am-so-shy syndrome would never help me at all...I always want to come here, where all the finest chicks are available...hahaha~

There's a girl i marked from the very beginning of this semester. She lives in IP, apparently and she got that oh-so-cute smile and she tend to blush when i smile at her...Annoyingly, i never talk to her...and i think i need the guts of Achilles to say 'hi!' to her...oh, where's my courage gone? Gone together with Rihanna, my so-skinny-ex girlfriend? c'mon...she didn't love me now...and i don't love her. enough said...no guts no glory eh? i hope that girl have guts to start a conversation with me...hahahaha~

:: please, i don't wanna go to the open sea again...::

500 bucks shopping spree~

:: i smell good~ ::

what do you expect when a guy when shopping? yes, we shopping very rarely, very seldomly...but we spent alot, and things we bought were still in our budget-line...i think so~

well, let's recap on what i bought this weekend. i bought a solvi titus pair of glasses, a bottle of acqua di gio 350ml (i dont really remember, what i know it is the same perfume i bought all over again), and a present for a very special lady in my life...she doesnt want to be called as girlfriend, so i call her woman-friend (bleh?)...all i can say that the present is very small, and in her favorite color...green. people say that, smaller things costs you more...well, i think the my present is bespoke with the lady...you do need diamond rings with to close the deal with woman (sorry la mr.Big, i stole your words...)...but p.s, i'm still single..ok? Dont make a speculation about us!

the more important bits this weekend is that i watched 'Sex and The City' twice! haha~ Very funny indeed, me myself i cant believe i watch that particular movie twice. I never watch a movie twice, apart from movies in my laptop which i watched all over again every other time...For your information, i'm a big fan of this movie because i watched the series until the end of it about 4-5 years ago. At that time, i'm still so young and struggling to understand why those educated women (Carrie, Miranda, Charlotte and Sam) have so much trouble in finding true love...sometimes it is not hard when you take one thing at a time but being 'educated', those girls tend to freak-out when problems come around...the problems is not their men, but sometimes lies within themselves.

Until now, i still believe that womans' worst enemy are their bestfriends...gilrfriends. sorry girls, but that's how things panned out. Yes, they are the one you can turn to when you are in trouble...That's ironic, You put your head on the person who give you problems' shoulder. The first time i watched the movie, i felt bad being a guy...it was so sad that Big didnt have guts to marry Carrie, but things like this do happen. Because after marriage, it is the husband who take the beating alot...and we never tell, hoping our woman already knew. We never act like girls, saying every other time that we should understand, or try, or try to learn understand their feelings...oh no~

Second time i watched that movie...i learn that love is all around. Choose the best. And the thing, the most important thing in this movie is...shit happen. Dont care how much you love, how much you care...we tend to screwed it up. Even at the very last minute, the moment of truth. We can deny that fact.

Women said that men have big ego, and it echoes thru my head every now n then...Then i ask, why our ego is so unspeakable you girls always talk about it? How about yours? Do you ever give a thought about it? to curb it? rather than blaming male egos? Yes, i have ego...a big one. But not as big as some girls i met before. And they rather talk about us...our ego, our this and that. Do you understand us? since that femalution (female-revolution), women never understand us. I bet you dont know. We are also human, we make mistakes but that doesnt give you license to punish us...We punish ourselves more than you could think, besides those jerks who called themselves a 'man'...

You must know how to differentiate a man and a man-wannabe. They are different. Me? i'm still in-progress...i really hope my 'Carrie' will love my 'diamond ring'...I cant afford Manolo Blahnik, but a bitten apple should do fine for Mr.Big...mr.big belly,haha~

:: ever thine, ever mine, ever ours~ ::

so sick~

:: nokia yang chokiak ::

i feel so sick...this is the second time my phone had a virus...and it keep re-starting until the battery's depletes and become hot...usually i charge my phone close to me but this week, i have to charge it away from me...about ten yards from anybody. i'm so afraid it will blow and somebody become blind because of it...

This is our world...more and more technology is created, innovated or re-invented just to make our life easier, i suppose...but, the backlash from that is things get so vulnerable and penetrable from 'anasir-anasir'...damn, i wish the technology make our life simpler.

I soo feel cheated when an advertisement said that their product(s) can make your life simpler, easier and whatever that is...but in turn, the device itself was so complicated you dont bother to send it back to the shop just to redeem the warranty. The technician will tell you lots of things you dont even know exists, and things you dont even wanna know...this thing had fallen off, so we need to open this and we charge it sekian2 ringgit or this thing terbakar la because of that thing had fallen of because somebody send a virus to your phone maybe accidentally...seems very easy to me to make money~ I should looking for a new phone by now.

I wish when a manufacturer say that their product(s) can make your life easier...they really mean it...I still didnt find one. Proton is another company that i like to point out...haha~ MB terengganu said that their 4-years old Perdana fleet is costlier to maintain than Merc E200k...Which one do i believe? The MB or the boffins at Proton? I think I couldnt believe anyone of them...

Why? Well, most of us know that the new millenia Proton is amazingly disgusting...Waja, Perdana with Alfa Romeo-like nostrils and Gen2 to name a few...How many problems all the customers have encountered over the years? Even my father, a nationalist in everything he buy, have run out of beliefs in Proton...His second car was also a Proton, and it drives very well the maintenance was so astronomical, even more than our fleet of Toyota's combined...a Waja maintenance for 4 years is almost the same with Yaris and Altis combined...Can you believe that? I dont wanna believe but that is the truth...

For almost 20 years after introducing the power window to their cars, Protons still struggling to rectify the problem while Skoda sells really fast and their cars wasnt bad at all...cheaper too, for a continental car. So many problems with Protons...what does their engineers do for all these years? Sleeping? Make ear-wax? We are the only car maker, that sold their cars in Britain, still making cars with the technology 20 years, not ahead but back...Thank god Iswara has now been replace...

I wanna the reliability come back to Proton...The reliabilty sells, i hope they knew that already. I hope my phone maker also knew that~

:: i wanna buy a Hummer, on sale now in Malaysia ::

sorry, sorry, SORRY!

:: han nak yang macam ni mak...bleh laaa ::

sorry kerana tiada talian internet...sekali dapat online rasa macam itik dapat air, macam monyet dapat pisang and macam handhallah dapat pempuan...hahahaha~





this is just some recap from the days i went M.I.A...





24th-26th june...nothning really happen i supposed. just bersiap2 nak balik and antar my sis ke kota samarahan.





27th-29th june...kat sarawak la...my sis roommates ada yang cun...malang nya, orang sarawak la plak...xmo jauh..dengar my mum mengeluh anak2 dia belajar jauh2...





30th june...sampai kat UMS yg silakak ini.





1st-6th july...dorman stage of life...uruskan surat-menyurat dalam tdo...membangkitkan isu proton savvy dengan bonda.





7th july...daftar kursus dan hantar surat...semakin popular dengan PA dekan SST..jumpa anne time nak daftar...xtanya plak bila dia nak kawen.





8th july...cis bedebah punya JAKMAS...aku nak duduk kat mane 2 minggu ni? nak aku buat khemah ke?nasib baik ada kawan2 yang tinggal di rumah kosong...means ada bilik kosong...layannn...





9th-11th july...jumpa dr.mabel, dr.pushpa, mr.ken, mr.abentim and dr.sitti...rasa semakin popular...





12th july...baru aku tau apsal aku popular...aku EXTEND rupenye...cissss~

:: ape ko tak reti nak abis blaja ke? ::

Hey! I Put My New Shoes On...

:: finally, a b'day present...thanks to anip and mama ::

Wahaha...aku rase happy sesgt sebab dpt present. A new pair of shoe, the label says "adidas AdiPure"...Rase macam Kaka pon ada..Sbenanye ni cam kasut futsal, tapi disebabkan kasut2 camni la yang sedap di bawa berjalan-jalan, mmg kasut camni la yang menjadi pojaan hatiku..huhu~

Dengan ada nya kasut ni, it marked the end of my Nike Mercurial Vapor...A very loyal companion of lot. Vapor tu la bawak gi dating, bawak gI main futsal, bawak gi vacation, bawak gi kuliah, bawak gi naik gunung...Macam2 tmpat kasut tu pnah jejak selama 3 tahun aku pakai dia..Tapi serius la aku tak kan buang kasut tu.

Call me sentimental, tapi 2 kasut aku sebelum ni, Vapor dgn Puma Roma tu, memang banyak kenangan...Bila terpandang kasut2 ni la, aku teringat balik saat2 dgn kawan2, dgn 'gf-gf', dgn family...pahit or manis...such a bittersweet memories...

Thanks a lot Vapor, welcome to the family AdiPure...

:: HULK BESH SANGAT2, HANCOCK MISTI BESH GAK KANN? ::

AYAH, ANDA MEMANG CARA!

:: ayah ku askar "wa...tahniah" ::

Asalnya aku tak tau pon hari ni (ke semalam?) adalah hari mengingati bapa...Ayah aku pon takda pon kesah sangat pasal hari bapa ni, aku pon malas nak cara...Aku rase laki ni memang macam tu la. Kita ni tak perlu sangat nak sambut ape-ape just untuk meluahkan rasa sayang or terima kasih kepada lelaki lain, khusus nya bapa and anak lelaki...

Aku dengan ayah aku takda la rapat sangat sebenarnye...Kami selalu sangat berselisih pendapat, kalo aku kat rumah tu, kalo tak ada 'perang', memang tak sah...Yang menjadi mangsa nya mak and adik-adik aku...Adik-adik aku lagi la, diorang lagi suka kalo mak yang merajuk dengan ayah, sebab nanti ayah akan berusaha sedaya upaya dia nak pujuk mak dan secara tak langsung kami buat benda pelik2 pon dia tak berapa nak kesah sangat..hahaha~

Tapi...Kalo aku dan ayah yang konflik, satu rumah tak aman. Adik-adik kena marah dengan ayah, dengan aku pon...Mak pening kepala macamane nak kasi aman rumah tu..Kadang2 bila di fikir balik, lawak pon ada. Walopon ayah aku seorang yang tegas dengan anak anak nye, aku tau dia buat sume tu for a purpose. Kalo dia tak tegas dengan aku, tak mungkin la aku masuk Alam Shah, tak mungkin la aku bole blaja kat UMS ni...Ntah jadi ape aku pon tak tau.

Dari kecik lagi aku disuruh berdikari by my dad...Kalo cuti dia suruh aku balik kampung tolong atuk kat kebun sawit, masa skolah rendah pergi tuisyen sendiri naik bas (dari umor 10 tahun dah pandai naik bas sorang2), and yang paling penting ayah aku ajar..."orang lain nak susah kan kita, takpe...jangan kita susah kan orang lain.". Aku rasa sebab tu la ayah aku tak kasi aku amek PTPT-pu, sebab dia tak nak anak dia yang belum tentu ada kerja nanti ni berhutang sampai RM21 ribu dengan orang yang tak dikenali..huhu~

Dulu, aku rasa ayah aku kasar sangat dengan aku nak dibandingkan dengan cara dia layan adik-adik aku...Now, I realize that dengan anak laki memang tak boleh kasi muka sangat..Nanti banyak benda bodoh yang aku buat. Lagi pun, dah memang aku anak lelaki tunggal, sulung lagi tu, so memang kena didedahkan dengan sense of responsibility dari kecik lagi...Fathers' love, is a fathers' love...It's different.

To Kapten (W) Haji Mohd Zakaria b. Ahmad, thank you for all your hardwork as a great and loving father to Handhallah, Zarith Zahrah, Zarith Zahirah, Zarith Nazirah and Zarith Nazifah...Seribu tahun pun kami tak dapat nak balas jasa dan cinta ayah kepada kami lima beradik. We all love you so much! Dan kami BERIKRAR (adik-adik, angkat tangan kanan) tak akan hampakan harapan yang ayah letak kan pada kami..AMIN...

:: FATHERS' LOVE, IS A FATHERS' LOVE...IT'S DIFFERENT ::

ME? SHOPPING? OH YOUR GOD...

:: sapetang di WARISAN SQUARE ::

Oh shopping, kenape la aku tak minat shopping...Pelik bile gadis2 hangat yang pernah di 'dating'i suke sangat bershopping...Adakah ianya satu bentuk riadah yang sangat berfaedah dan mampu membina stamina mereka? Atau ianya satu alasan untuk keluar dating? Aku rase pegi shopping bersama pempuan adalah satu alasan untuk kita (orang laki) menjadi kuli mereka sepanjang hari...

Haha...takde laa...Aku tak minat bershopping sebab bukan ada benda sangat pon nak di beli. Kalo pegi setakat nak pusing2 satu mall baik tak payah..Main futsal lagi bagosss.Tapi, ada la satu hari yang agak membosankan ni, aku gagahkan diri yang sememangnye gagah ni untuk berjalan2 melihat alam, perempuan juga haiwan...Kat KK ni memang banyak shopping mall, and ada certain standard untuk mall2 tersebut...Ada mall kurang upaya, ada mall sederhana, ada mall kelas menengah and ada mall kelas atasan, yang penuh dengan butik tapi haram takda yang pegi pon..LOSER!!

Benci betul (kalo yang gedik akan cakap "mennccciiii!!") bile ada orang cakap KK ni mundur..HELLO! Kat sini banyak gile hotspots untuk shopping dan berdarmawisata...I think, KK is one of the best city i ever live in..Lots of malls, nightspots, beaches, islands...Ada ke tempat lain kat Malaysia ni macam KK? Nope, i guess..Berbalik ke topik asal which is shopping, i went to this new mall in town called Warisan Square. Compared to other malls in town, yang ni agak pelik sket. It is more like an closed bazaar..payah la nak cakap. Senang cam ni laa..Kat mall slalu nye tak bole smoke kan? Kat sini boleh dan digalakkan..huhu~ Kat Warisan Square ni banyak butik sket la berbanding 20 years old Centrepoint kat sebelah tu...So, bole la kalo nak window shopping. Fancy food and beverages outlet pon banyak kat sini...Kira WS ni standard dia antara One Borneo (very fancy) and Centrepoint (not so fancy)..So just nice la kalo stakat nak jalan2 window shopping je.huhu~ Macam tak pecaye lak aku pegi window shopping..I think it is not a big deal to many, tapi untuk aku yang malas gile kuar rumah ni, it is such a big news..huhu~ Lainkali aku cite pasal jejalan kat One Borneo plak ek...Skang ni OB baru je soft opening, so maybe next week baru aku jejalan kat sane plak...=)

:: quicksilver boutiques are everywhere, and i'm craving for those hats!!! ::

Nasi Ambak and The Undergraduates...

This is a tale of the most common dish for lowly-paid or budget individuals in Sabah and its most common customers...The undergrads of UMS or Universiti Masalah Selalu. Coz' the varsity they are in is so problematic, most of them have to consume nasi ambak...which is the easiest way to comply with their tight budget before the PTPTN money is in...Nasi ambak only costs you around RM 2.50...It consists of white rice (dah masak la), two, deep-fried chicken wings, a spoonful of sambal (boleh tambah), and a small bowl of soup.



Nasi ambak is the epitome of UMS students life. It's just adequate, cheap, but it still can make you full (dasar makan banyak)...The price is so low, which is a direct antagonist to the city where everything is sooo, damn, expensive...The only thing that supposed to be cheap in this city is seafood, but still the chicken wings only cost you RM3-4 per kilo...A lot cheaper than seafood.



I fell in love with this thing...But now, Nasi ambak have changed. Its price hiking up to RM3.50. Not many student buy it today, well not many do know Nasi ambak exists...Sebab dah same cam makan kat kafe, so buat ape susah2 nak pegi kampung likas just to buy "nasi orang miskin" yang dah jadi makanan exclusive...baik la masak sindri..huhu~


So, i make up my mind...i went to recently-opened One Borneo (damn, it's a lot larger than midvalley!), and i bought coriander, some garlic, other spices (banyak sangat, aku malas nak taip), and most importantly...MUTTON SHOULDER bebeh! It's been a while since aku beria sangat nak masak...I wanna make Jamie Olivers' signature dish (konon!)...spicy mutton soup...huhu~ I think it would be lovely! (tiru cara Jamie cakap)...


The days where i'm hugely depend on nasi ambak are long before me...Bukan la aku cakap aku kaya nak mampus, tapi cooking is the only thing that i can do to express myself...even my friends here sooo damn crave my cooking...Aku rase takda la sedap sangat berbanding Nenek Mon's recipes...Tapi when they praise me for i've done with my cooking, i forget all the troubles and problems surronding me at that time...


Nape aku masak skang? Ada problem ke? Ada la my childhood friend ni, kalo dia merajuk punye la payah nak pujuk..Boleh lupe lak b'day dia (im sooo sory la dear...huu~). I'm so busy with this and that, tapi i know itu bukan la excuse nye...So, aku fikirla mcmane la nak 'memenangi' hati dia semula...Mane tau, time memasak nanti dapat idea nak beli ape...kannn?

:: WANNA TASTE AUSSIE FOOD SO BADLY, CICI HELP ME! ::

what i ALWAYS expect...

:: BIGGER THAN MY BODY ::

I always expect, people will answer my calls even on wee hours in the morning.

I always expect, people will accept me as I am whereever and whenever i go.

I always expect, the person will love me as much as I love her.

I always expect, I'm not alone.

I always expect, I'm better intellectually than others.

I always expect, that I can push forward even harder.

I always expect, that I'm fearless.

I always expect, world is far more forgiving than afterlife.

I always expect, my friends will sit around me and tell me stories.

I always expect, that I can kill the friggin' mosquitoes in my room.

I always expect, that my stamina is second to none.

I always expect, that I've smouldering sex appeal.

I always expect, girls will answer my messages and calls.

I always expect, England will qualify for EURO 2008, eventhough I'm ardent Argentinians supporter.

I always expect, person I love will kiss my forehead everytime before I go to sleep.

I always expect, I don't need peoples' help.

I always expect, a bunch of idiotic whore will stay away from me.

I always expect...

I always expect, somebody will come and save me...

Man With Less Regrets...

:: KINABALU MOUNTAIN FROM MANUKAN ISLAND ::

Couple of weeks ago, i went to Manukan island alone...Some might say, "Ape yang ko buat kat sane sorang?, bawak la awek-awek ke, kawan-kawan ke...". Sory guys, sometimes i need my own space and my own time to do whatever i want. Aku ke sana just to reflect what i have done all this while...And why i didnt regret over my decisions all these years..It's a bit like muhasabah diri, just between me, Manukan island, Kinabalu mountain and my god (segala pujian bagi ALLAH, tuhan sekalian makhluk)...

When i was alone, gazing the sun goes down, watching the panoramic view of Kinabalu's from a far makes me wonder...do i really have serious regrets in my life? Do i did things that makes people hates me? Am i easily fell down for the temptations? And it brings me to the biggest 'what if' question in my life...What if i could turn back the time so people will give a very serious consideration about me...

I always feel alone eventhough i'm not alone...But sometimes, it is the best thing ever happen to me, coz' aku tak menyusahkan orang lain. I'm so afraid that i could be the burden of someone else, turns out we need somebody's help at each turn of our life. I want to help people around me, and not the other way around. In the same time, i want people to take me seriously. If i'm a Law undergraduates from UIA, will people will give me the attention i've always crave? Person who know that i've once offered a place in UIA matriculation for syaria's law may always questions my decision not to accept it, instead i stayed in KPM matriculation that turns out to disastrous by my own standards. Do i regret it? Never in a lifetime...

Then, i enrolled into UMS...Much farther then my family thought. My mum nearly used her 'inner connection' to get me into UiTM, but i refused. I said, "Ini lah masa nya nak buktikan yang aku bole hidup jauh dari family"...Then, my parents agreed. But, when i'm here, i never taste the opportunity to meet my family every week. I can't use my lovely Satria (which was sold last year to some teacher) often, I can't push my sisters forward when they were in major examinations, I can't have a good time with all my friends who study in any varisities in Klang Valley, news about what happen now and then reached me at very late stage, and most importantly, i can't met Ijoy my cousin who passed away last year (Al-fatihah to him)...But still, do i have any regret...None.

So, why in the name of god i came here, in Manukan island? What i need to reflect to? Is my life so dull, even i didnt give it the serious of the considerations? No, i realize that my life is so colorful...So colorful that not many have a life like me. I would never trade my life for someone elses. I'm happy coz' thing might be even worse if i'm a law student, studying in Peninsula or anything. I'm clumsy, no denying that fact...But i'm proud to say that by the time goes by, i'm wiser in my decision-making. Even if I stutter in my own words, or choking on my own spit, I'm glad that i'm not the ego-maniacal person i used to be...

The only thing that i regret in my life is falling in love with my ex-girlfriend elder sister. I'm not cut it to be hers, and never will be. She's very responsible, caring and loving person...But one thing i realize is that we could never be together...If we get together somehow in the future, what am i supposed to say when i meet her mum? What am i supposed to say when i see her sister, that happen to be my ex? What am i supposed to do? By the way, it is only a pipeline dream...She still have her boyfriend, whom she love so much eventhough that guy always make her 'makan hati'...And I always said,"Sabar la...dugaan je tu. Laki kan memang ego sket dalam bab-bab relationship ni.". And 'till now, i never ever tell her about my feelings, and i tend to keep it that way...Coz' loving somebody doesn't mean we must have that person. Putting a smile in her or his face for once is adequate already. Do i regret losing her? ermmm...It's hard to say.

:: LOVE IS A LOSING GAME ::

Owh Ragbi...

"Weh Hans, apsal ko tak main untuk UMS?"..."Macam mana aku nak main, asal team aku masuk semi ke, final ke, sure aku tak dapat main punye lah."..."Apsal lak?"..."Badan aku ni Alaa, dah macam orang tua-tua dah haa...tackle sket patah, tackle sket tercabut sane-sini"..."Ke ko dah takut?"...


Sory la kepada sesiapa yang view blog aku nih, dah 3 hari tak update...i think the conversation above tells you something. Dari hari Jumaat sampai la esok, kat UMS ni ada Masum 10's. Kepada sesiapa yang jahil, Masum 10's ni salah satu acara Sukan Masum 2, 2008. Sukan Masum ni ada 2 phase, satu dah lepas dah. Yang second phase kat UMS, and biase lah, ada la jumpe kawan-kawan yang main untuk Universiti-universiti lain ni. Ada la dua-tiga orang budak budak ni tanye aku, apsal tak main dah. Aku cakap dengan diorang, malas nak sakit2kan badan main ragbi dah. Biasa lah, kalo dari f2 main ragbi asik injured je, sape tak tensen...

Then, salah sorang kawan aku ni 'mempersoalkan' lah keputusan aku untuk 'retire' dari game ni...Alaa, memang aku takut. Aku takut kene operate. Bahu aku ni memang di ketahui ramai problem memanjang. Patah entah brape kali entah, 'dislocate' apetah lagi. Sampai bile aku balik K.L, Dr. Mona siap ugut aku lagi nak suh masuk operation, tampal plate besi kat sendi bahu aku, biar dah tak terlucut lagi...TAKUT WOOOO!!!!!

Mental aku dah tak focus pada game yang aku suka ni, Cikgu Rasi pon cakap macam tu tadi, sebab bile aku main, aku takut nak injured padahal bile game la kena 'all-out'...Asal aku ada awek, mesti diorang pon tak brape suka aku main jugak...Yelah, sape nak bf diorang asik-asik 'cacat' sementara je...Tapi at least, badan aku still cam ruggers lagi, heee~

Korang-korang je la main, skang aku jadi UMS Rafflesia Technical Advisor je, bole marah-marah orang...hahahaha...

:: HAPPY TO BE APART OF WARRIORS ALL-CONQUERING SIDE ::

Woman, Hijab and Smoke...

:: OI, NO KOMEN LAH !! ::

"Dot, ko jangan bitau orang ek aku smoke."..."La, awatnya?"..."Yela, aku kan pakai tudung ni, ko tak nampak ke?"...

Nama dia S (bukan nama sebenar, gile ah dot!!). She is one of my best buds, memang 'cara' gila la minah sorang ni. Dia tak kesah apa orang nak cakap pasal dia...Tapi, bila sampai part tudung dgn rokok dia jadi risau...kenape ek?

Muslim women is synonym with 'tudung' or hijab...It's an obligation, wajib and it's sinful not to obey ALLAH's order. One of my sister isnt wearing tudung, but i kept asking her to wear it. Hopefully, she'll understand. but at least she isnt walking around wearing tudung and 'naked'...

Know what i mean? I used to date 'naked', hijab-wearing girls...Lots and lots of them...I mean, why wear hijab when u cannot commited to it? It doesn't mean i hate girls wear tudung..i hate girls who wear tudung but their dignity remains on the floor...Why? Why wear baby tee when u wear tudung? WHY? Why wear tudung and tight jeans? Bile duduk nampak g-strings..laki pandang tau pulak malu..tarik-tarik baju tuh..BODOH!!! I dont understand...Kalo nak cakap ikut perintah agama, ikut la sepenuhnya...Jangan separuh hati...

So, for me the puta de mierda of all women is this type of women... Aiseman,memalukan la... Tak pernah terpikir ke? Or u wear tudung just as the 'in' thing in fashion? Al-maklum lah, a friend of mine yang masuk AF kan terkenal dgn imej bertudung nya...Dia pun pandai menggayakan tudung..Sesuai dengan imej dia. Dengan jubah,habis tertutup semua, kan bagus...Not that i supported Heliza for being a singer..But i supported her as the 'benchmark' for young, muslim women who want to wear tudung stylishly..Am i say it rite? (But it turns out, Liza pon sama gak haa..haih).

Hijab never deter women from doing what they wanted to do...Ada je pilot ppuan pakai tudung, in iran there a rally driver wear tudung... There a woman ran 100m dash in olympics wear hijab, and got international accolades...tak pernah menghalang lansung... So, pakai la tudung...mmkay? BUT! when u wear tudung, always behave. Respect islam as THE way of life and religion, and hijab as an obligation...

So, what's the point with smoke...And smoking? As i say before, hijab never deter u from doing anything...But don,t do something sinful and 'hide' behind the hijab...and it certainly never deter u from smoking... But the thing u must know is people around us is very judgemental and like to pass gossips around. S is my close friend and she smoke...and i don't care about that. Hak dia sebagai pengguna tembakau... But society sangat-sangat mengharap yang si pemakai tudung ni baik all-rounder...Ai, payah tau nak jadi perfect.

The point is..not all yang pakai tudung itu baik, luaran ke dalaman ke... And not all yang free-hair itu tak baik... Tudung bukan lah ukuran baik buruknya seseorang... Lagi bagus free-hair dari pakai tudung and naked..kan?

Sory la dot, ko je la contoh terbaik...=p

:: MARLBORO LIGHTS OR SALEM? WHICH ONE GIRLS? ::

Nia oh Nia...

"Loh..Gimana Sih?"

"Nia Ramadhani? Jangan la buat lawak"..."aku serius la, lawak apenye"..."ko ni kan, cam budak kecik"..."normal la ada crush dengan artis kan?"...

Pada aku, normal la kita ada sedikit 'crush' kat artis...ala, macam impian yang tak kan jadi kenyataan tu...sume orang ada. impian nak jadi cam Ananda Krishnan la..impian nk kuar dating dengan Brad Pitt la...macam-macam lagi la yang tak masuk akal...

Aku punya, takda la tak masuk akal sangat..hihi~ tapi memang tak mungkin berlaku la aku rasa..sebab dia COMEL YANG AMAT!! dapat yang seiras pon dah cukup baik...=p

Sejak bila aku minat kat Nia? Entah...sebab time Bawang Putih, Bawang Merah...dia bukan watak baik pon...cuma minat sangat tengok muka dia..cam minta puji..hahaha. Bila di "google-google", boleh tahan gak dia punya "social life"..."Wajar saja saya memakai bikini, foto-foto itu kan di kolam renang"..you are one, crazy babe!

Kat Malaysia, ada ke Nia?