mendisiplinkan bangsa?

i have a father, and he is a soldier (even though just wataniah). and as a soldier himself, he tend to be very strict to my siblings and me. first, i felt that he didn't love me at all, but i know why he do that later in my life.

every other religion teach how to do things right and doing a right thing. even when one have no believe in religion what so ever, human being still have conscience...and having conscience makes human know about what is wrong and what is right. when we was a kid, we always questioned why we get scold (or worse) when we returned late at home from the playground, when we always watching cartoons and not 'touching' the school books all day long. we were kids, we always enjoyed having fun. school books were the last thing we remember during weekends (for some of us).

but then, our parents always said that books is more important than doraemon or dragon ball, while we begged to differ. book not enjoyable compared to the latter.

that was our first encounter with the word 'discipline'. why it is so important? does conscience not enough? conscience come from discipline. the discipline come from ethics. who introduce ethics in this world? someone who was\is right enough to tell one is wrong and one is right, maybe?

discipline starts from home. it is the first education one has to endure, and that learning process will continue until the day we all die. maybe i'm more discipline than an older person but maybe a younger person is more discipline than i am. who knows? nowadays discipline is slowly eroding away from the society. individualism is taking place at pace. gone were the days when the older, wiser can give advises to the young generation without getting any harm. the usual words that came out from the mouth is "alah, awak pun bukan baik sangat nak tegur2 orang, macam bagus je".

the funny thing is, it is always not the best person who give the advises. i remember when i was about 9-10 years old or so, a 'mat pit' (that's a drug addict for u) told me never ever mingle with drugs, just like him. or else i will ended up like him.

getting advises or making yourself more discipline doesn't need to start with an older, wiser person. sometimes they don't even know what they are talking about. some counselors for me just talking trash, they just read by books and never experience it first hand. the best advises you can get, maybe from the person 'been there, done that'.

never afraid of getting comments or advises, it maybe helpful or it maybe dreadful. if you doubted the advises, still we have the conscience to determine whether the things\choices are right or wrong.

lastly..."betulkan yang biasa, biasakan yang betul"...i'm working on that, what say you?

'stupid' is a mean word...'stupidest'?~

ARGGGGGHHHHHH~ two papers down in my 'finale' exam and i didnt quite like it...i've study a lot just to sit there and wondering..."aku nak jawab ape ni?" not that i'm not studying, for the first time in my bloody life i've stayed up until the wee hours of the morning...still, the outcome wasnt really good...and i really hope things will turn out to be better at the end of the day...

then, it got me thinking..."who the hell came out with the examination idea?". i've done a little research that 'examination' (in academic world) starts when the first school came to life...thousands and thousands years ago, when the first academy was built during Roman Empire heydays. but then, there were no OMR papers, no study week, nothing. in fact, the examination is continous. from the first day you enrolled until you roll-out.

currently, the examination is like two or three hour at most, you spilled out what you have studied last night and TADAAA~....wait until the results come out.

for me, it's not right...this type of examinations only work for those who have photographical memory, or really really desperate...this sort of exams only encourage plagiarism, and people always targetting wrong people.

yesterday, i've sat my finance paper where a girl bring a host of formulas into exam hall...and the invigilator targetting my friend behind her...my friend wanna have a slice of info too,but the main sheep-headed moron is the girl...for me it's simple, if u dont know how to do it, just act like u dont know...never cheat.

continous valuations should replace the current scheme of exam...it is useless by the way to evaluate one's ability though...almost anyone can cheat.

sepak terajang dunia politik varsiti~

it's not that i'm soo lazy posting a new one lately, but i'm so busy right now...exams, thesis, VIVA, industrial training, job interview, new car, ungrateful friend stole my time of writing new post...well, i'm here now and this is my new post.

a fortnight ago it was an election day for all varsities students in Malaysia...the mass media coverage was quite astounding, some say. but for me that's not a polling day. just a mere formalities to see who will lead us for the next two semester. and the results too were predictable.

can u imagine the election that everyone already know the outcome? suspiciously intransparent should i say...and the night before that, the varsity staffs handed out the candidates u must choose for the forthcoming election? something fishy might happen...

that's why i said before, the election was just a formalities. The varsity have choose which one of the candidates that should lead the students and not the students themselves who choose their leaders...If UMS newly appointted MPP read this post, they must know that what i've said is true.

Few years back, i have give a thought of joining the election as a general candidate...but before i'm taking my application form, a good friend of mine said that 'don't bother joining the race, u'll lose before u know it'...

simply because the varsity have their own plan, their own set of 'leaders'...well, fair enough. but, thankfully i have friends in MPP and their mastermind in everything they wanna do is the varsities' student affairs divisions...what the hell?

they simply didnt do the job...just being scapegoat when things got ugly and being the one who get the praise when things were good. they dont fight for student rights, no need to fight because i can tell u what these leaders receive in return...

1. their PTPTN will not be blocked even their pointers are dreadful during their tenure.
2. no need to pay for varsity fee...two semester equals rm2500++
3. they can choose which room they wanna live in.
4. they will always get a room in their varsity lifetime.
5. they can go oversea for whatever trip, on students money, eventhough majority have dreadful command in english.
6. their indiscipline will go unpunished...

'leaders'? u tell me...

Ditegur Pun Tak Boleh~

If u ask me, I'm a very big fan of Bureaucracy...yes yes...call me a little 'leceh' and old-fashion but actually, the bureaucracy helps you in many ways. When each thing we do, whcih is the formal business, bureaucracy will help you when things went bad...That particular letters or any memos will sort like bail you out...Orang Melayu cakap "ada hitam-putih"...see?

But now, many people lambast the bureaucracy system, like the system that work so well for the past hundreds years or so is having it flaws, a big one. It's like a big hole in a parachute, not helping at all should they say. The problem is not with the system. In France, where the bureaucracy originated the things go very, very well even sometimes people will ask the government worker if the particular letters are having a slightest part missing.

I'm a big fan of the system, it always bail me out when I'm in trouble and it will do it for you. In Malaysia the problem is also not the system, but the people. By the people i mean all of us, no matter if you are government worker or not. We all have our own faults, just bloody admit it. The problem with the government agencies, particularly, is their workers...from the lowest to the highest of the rank.

This is my own encounter with Malaysian Goverment agency, called Universiti Malaysia Sabah. I went to the library to search for some journals. As so, i went to the counter to ask for the cubicle room key...As i write down my name and matrix no., the clerk on-duty ask me very rudely to put the date on it, not just and us-side down '=' mark. I suggested to the clerk that every new day, she put at the beginning of the list, the date for that particular day so all the student will never have to put down the date again, just their name and matrix number...two things that different from one another.

But then, the exchange of 'punch' began...Here's what I remember.

me: "Kan bagus kalo dah di tulis tarikh kat atas ni, same je tarikh untuk hari ni kan?"

the bitch: "uina, ko ingat saya ni kuli ko ka? bnda kecil pon ndak mau tulis betul2"

me: "saya cadangkan aje, tak nak ikut xpe. Lagi pn cik kan main YM je kat kaunter ni, takda keje nak buat"

the bitch: "ko ni mau jadi bos saya ka ha?! mau suru2 org pula"

me: "WOI! ko xpaham ke mangkuk?! dah la gemuk, cakap orang paksa2 plak..aku cakap aku cadangkan aje...Ko tau ka aku sapa ha?!"

the bitch: "~"

me: "buang masa siak begaduh dgn kau, mari sni kunci!"

The rest is history...so, do u got my point? the problem is not the system but the people conducting it and using it..Me also at fault, after give it a thought the date is the smallest of the info-piece, why i should bother?

We're all humans, but that doesnt mean we can do same mistakes all over again...the system is there, respect it and use and also work with it...

senang cerita macam ni la...

For the past few weeks or so, some of my friends asked me about the world economic collapse. Some turn to me on what they should be worried of a.k.a the backlash from this state of economic panic throughout the world right now, and how does it happen at the first place.

Well, I'm not an economic expert but "senang cerita macam ni la"...

Most of the financial powerhouses are American companies. When I say American, the companies are owned by Americans, based in America and most of the transactions are made in USD (United States Dollar)...These companies like Lehman Brothers, Merill Lynch, AIG to name a few make most of their profits from speculation markets, barely translates as 'make the money out of nothing'...

What does 'make money out of nothing' means? Well, the simplest analogy is like this. You have RM15, and one of your friend told you that you should buy a particular 'nombor ekor' because it will come out tomorrow as a first prize...you buy it based on that speculation, a ticket cost you RM5...and unfortunately you lost, because the number didn't even came out on the next day paper. Your friend come to you again, doing the same thing, with your reaction is also the same, and the aftermath is also the same...repeat that for 500 times, which means by that time you are owing someone else's money...until you couldn't repay it, because the total amount is out of your payable range...As so, you'll be declared as a Bankrupt person.

Imagine 'you' as a biggest investment operator in the world, with the stakes of gamble is bigger than any other company in the world...That company would be declared as bankrupt as well...

As these financial powerhouses collapsed, other financing parties will make their loans or credit terms and conditions stricter than ever to prevent other investment companies from 'suka-suka je nak loan'...thus the term 'credit crunch' is used...

These conventional financial system is always vulnerable to these risks, but their margin of profits is also very high. But now, it is downtrend which means most of the high-stakes shares or currency are not performing well, and most of the investment house is full of debt because of this downtrend.

Does this America financial collapse will effect us badly? My answer is definite YES. Do you still remember 1997 Asia Economic Crisis? well, this time around it will be even worse than that...Even though our government said that it would affect us that much, but believe me...It is.

Americas' government have forked out USD 700 billion (that is seven hundred thousand million) to help those ailing financial and investment powerhouses from collapsing. Their bankruptcy will further deteriorate the financial state in America particularly and also the world as a whole.

Why was that? Why all the world feel the heat? Well, most of the foreign transaction between countries and also multinational companies are made in USD. Most of the countries in the world also have USD as their majority foreign reserves, rather than evergreen gold bar. Basically, the USD is the currency of the world and when it is 'shaky', all the world will tremble.

So, my opinion is...1.start saving, 2.Work Hard, 3. Don't accept VSS (skim berhenti kerja sukarela) and put up a fight, 4.If you are looking for jobs, work with the government agencies, and finally 5.be frugal in your expenditure...

It may help...fingers crossed.

everybody...yeah~

huh, it's been a while since the last post...biasak lahh~ raya, what do you expect? a pot-belly, 2-8kg gains which means a kilo lost during ramadan doesn't helping at all. not me, but someone else's...me, i gain a small amount of f*cking 10-kilo...what~...yes yes...it's "ramadan aftershock syndrome". You know, you didnt felt that 'hungry', but you still wanna chew something edible...a moron said that because i found 'the one', i'm happier thus i ate a lot...what a stupendous accusations that one, if it's true, maybe i'm the fattest man the world have ever see...

no...i'm not that happy or something. But, i feel blessed everytime i'm in a relationship. i'm not that good-looking, nor that rich...but maybe it's something else that matter that make women attracted to me...

just wanna say that although i'm busy right now with assignments and thesis and final exam, i'm working on a book (yeah, i'm so serious about writing i give it a try)...let's just say it's semi-fictional book which most of the events are based on the true stories...picture it as 'sex and the city' meet 'friends' meet 'scrubs'...no 'grey anatomy' or 'private practice' here...

based on 4 person, 4 different life and perspective, in a one heluva city...my inspiration, YOU ARE!

her name is masturah masngon~

fell in love...again? as i told u before, i dont know what that supposed to mean...But this girl really has it...she's from jawa descend, and she looks serious...apart from she's really cute...

well, i hope this time around her friends doesnt act like the friends of previous girls i interested in...knowing me from only what they heard of and not in-person...signs are good, and hopefully there are some major developments in near future.

I'll 'balik kampung' this coming monday...It's been a while now. Bestnye dapat makan my granny's pnye masakan...she's all time champion in our big family...sambal goreng yang superb~

ohhh cik mas...gonna miss ur serious face this hari raya~

Return Of The Superfly~

torrential rain...the number one agenda-killer in sabah...negeri di bawah bayu, yeah rite. Today is the fourth wet-day of the week. Many things happen. Blackout in IP, IP bus met an accident with T.U.T bus. A driver nearly drowned when his 4x4 slump into the ditch...and THE most unlucky of all...ada laaa~ huhu....

today is supposed to see my supervisor, but when i'm very lazy and with the weather is like this...there's no better excuses for sleeping on my comfy bed, watching the days goes by...nak pegi bazaar ramadan ponn malas ya amat.

But apparently, eventhough i'm lazy being professional bed-potato, i manage to arrange three blind dates with the girls i met earlier this week....and surprise2, it's not me who do the arrangements...THEY ARE~

And suddenly, jadi perasan HOT sekejap...it's okay i thought, once in a while u have to praise urself. It's motivating though. I don't see the reason why they are so beria2 in doing blind dates...yes yes, it's my idea but just for fun actually...nothing serious. But, they took my words seriously, and i have to get ready to embark in this 'blind date' mission....

Jangan mintak aku blanje sudeehhhh~ kering ni...

What About Now..What About Today?

well, i guess i'm lying...yes, there are some girls I interested in. But some girls? Alahai~ It's very classic me...just like, not love.

I dont want some girls, I want a very special, tailor-made woman that fits me well. She must, and i mean must, make me willing to do something extraordinary for her...not willing to die, because die is not extraordinary...well, i dont know for you.

And, in the mean time, she must willing to do something extarordinary for me...and together, we do something extraordinary for our love...Love? Hmmm~ for now, i dont know what that's supposed to mean.

I always want to see the one that i really love...and people still wondering how she will look like. I dont bother, because me myself, I also dont know how she will be like...maybe as hot as Amber Chia, or as cute as Nia Ramadhani, or an all-rounder like Nurul Shuhada Nurul Ain...Basically, i really dont bother all of this...My past experience tought me that, sometimes you can easily differentiate a girl and a woman. Being nice and having a good looks sometimes doesnt help at all.

If i given a chance, i want to make a combined clone of all my friends who are girls, not girlfriends. I want as pretty as Nur Farhana, as cute as Nur Ain Fadlina, as helpful as Saidatul Madiha, as playful as Salliza, as hot as Nur Alia Fatiha, as 'manja' as Mazfarina, and finally...as all-rounder as Zalikha Ibrahim.

Time will tell when I will become unavailable...but, what about now? or maybe today?

Our Favourite Mistakes~

Today, i'm busy walking around KK to renew my ATM cards, buy a new handphone (second handphone in 4 weeks), set up a new cellular number, etc2...I'm a little tired and wired at the moment, so bear with me eh?

Erm, I've already put up my new number at the shout out segment so you can give me an sms when it matter most.

There are a lot...and i mean, A LOT! of things going thru my mind today...And i was thinking that, whatever happen to me this week, is only happening because of my mistakes...

Nevermind...

And to all my friends, please leave your number at comment...pliz..

New Ramadhan, New Affections~

Assalamualaikum...it's very rarely i start a new post with salam, really. Because i know some of my readers are not Muslim, and sometimes, the Muslims' friends didn't bother to answer it. See...

But I'm happy that the holy month of Ramadan finally arrived and I'm here, celebrating it with reciting Al-Quran, breakfasting with friends, Terawih prayers and many more. To all my Muslim friends, happy fasting and make this Ramadan your best Ramadan ever. Selamat Berpuasa dan Menjalankan Ibadah...=)

Apart from my current affection to Ramadhan, I've got two more new affections, writing and a new girlfriend. Well, this one is the serious one and if the time's right and I can confirmed the 'deal', I'll introduce her to all of you, my loyal blog-readers. Maybe some of you will be surprised, but I have a great feeling about this.

Enough with personal stuff, on with the public one. Word has it on the streets that sometimes I'm too outspoken in my writing, which is my blog. Well, what can I say? I'm Handhallah being Handhallah...It's aforementioned that, if you don't like what I wrote, simply don't read it again. Okay?

And one more important thing...this one is really important. A day before Ramadan, my hand phone and some cash had been stolen from my house. I would like to apologize to anyone of you who tried to contact me during this period. I'm simply out-of-reach at the moment, by hand phone that is. I'll try to sort this mess out this mid-week, but expect a new number from me, because my mother ask me to return to Celcom one more time after almost four years I've using the Maxis number. So, Maxis friend...sorry. =p

I'll informed you my new phone number, probably on the next post or just by mouth...And to all who have been supportive during this difficult time, thank you soooo much.

p/s: Maddy, i want and need another H really badly...=)

Antara Pandai dan Bijaksana~

I totally overwhelmed by Tun Mahathir explanations about AUKU acts, The acts that he introduced back in 1974, when he was a Education Minister. Yes, I agree with almost every point he make...yes, almost.

There are certain things that are absolutely right about AUKU. Back in the '70s, not many professionals came from Malay families, only the better-offs and really2 brilliant people can afford tertiary education. And those brilliants came with a scholarships from Government, and i believe until now it still happening. So, the AUKU was presented so these Bumiputras, which is very low in supposed admission can really concentrate on their studies, rather than 'wasting' their time on the streets demonstrating for this and that.

Now, some of us believe that the AUKU should be abolished, including me actually. Why? Simply because we just create 'pandai' bumiputras, not 'bijaksana' bumiputras. The varsities students should be both 'pandai' and 'bijaksana', not just 'pandai' only. I've seen many 'pandai' people in my life. They come from various type of families. Malay, Chinese, Indian, KadazanDusun etc2.But to find a 'bijak' person, that was rare finding, really.

How we evaluate 'pandai'? By type of courses, the degrees or masters or even doctorate, the careers, the status of job etc2. Can we evaluate 'bijak' in the same manner? Of course the answer is not. Some professors can only talk about maths and physics all day but they stuttered when it come to politics and the well-being of their respective races or nations. They are not Jack of All Trades, only master in one field doesn't make you a 'bijak' person. 'Pandai'...maybe.

Actually, I was wrong. Not just we've created 'pandai' bumiputras only, but also non-bumis. Just look at the Malaysian Bar Council. It is stupid to say them not 'pandai' at all. They're lawyers and some of them are formers public prosecutors, degrees came from Harvard, Stanford and maybe Lincoln's Inn. And most of them are non-bumis. Still they act very un'bijaksana' recently by holding a forum called "Memeluk Islam". Are you 'bijaksana' when deliberately hurting other people feelings?

Put this in one basic situation. You don't fart in public. Why was that? Why dont you just let the gas out? It's your rights, right? But by doing it, you will become insensitive, irresponsible and anything suitable to describe how annoying you are. And you will be downright embarrassed. See...

Back to AUKU acts. Why i really agree that the acts should be demolish is because...the student become afraid, by-books, no-life creature. You can learn how to be 'pandai' by books, by lectures or whatever. But, in order to become 'bijak', you need to mingle with other people, from other races, different walks of life, different age or generation gap to know what kind of community we live in. Not because of politics i wrote this but because in the sense that i responsible too when my colleagues only have life with books and lectures notes. Other than that, Naruto and Kreko and maybe girlfriends/boyfriends having a picnic at Simpang Mengayau. What a boring life when a student like me, at this higher-learning level should done more with community, make themselves better because at the end, i'm the part of the community itself.

i don't like demonstrating, waste of time. And sometimes the demonstrators themselves didn't know for what or for whom they demonstrated. What a stupid excuses to run from a lecture. I don't come to lecture, just because i don't want to. But i like to write or give public speeches, it shows that I'm full of substances and not just 'poyo', shouting at the streets. Then maybe people around me will evaluate my thoughts, give enriching comments. That, i really sure, will enrich my thoughts too. I'm just 22 years old for god sake, and an extend student. I'm not that 'pandai', but what i crave is to be humane, 'bijak'...That's what matters most. everybody can be 'pandai', given hard work and a time frame. But 'bijak', you learn in life. You cant be 'bijak' when you don't have life..Is it?

AUKU acts just holding students back from being 'bijak'...If you dont want the students to un'pandai' by abolishing the AUKU, preserved it, but with major reconstruction. Still barred student from entering Political Demonstrations, but leave them to speak, to write their thoughts out. We need 'bijak' leaders in the future, not just 'pandai' only...

I Saw Her...Again~

What do you think? If I were u...I believe that the chemistry is there for the taking. But currently, none of us have the guts to speak to each other...Maybe what we need is a spark. Not a spark-plug laa~ but u know, a spark to get us started.

Maybe I'm SS (syok sendiri)...but what blushes means for a girl. or a woman? every time we stump to each other, she blushed when i smiled...she's so cute. call her overweight or what ever, but i like that kind of blush...makes me wanna blush too~

i totally like her...seriously. but one of my friend said that I'm becoming thoroughly desperate and distracted. i don't care. furthermore, this is my last semester here...i just wanna know her name, and god willing, having a small chit-chat with her...that's it.

i don't think we have time to take it to another level, so my aim is so low...yes, i like her, i like her, i like her...i can't stop thinking about that blush. What it supposed to mean? Is she lethargic? Penat sampai merah muka? or just shy when somebody smiled at her, even though it wasn't me? Maybe some women are like that, just tend to blush without knowing it. I believe, if she reading this blog, she doesn't know that she is the one who blush...

but today, she just smiled back! and I'm the one who blush...i thought sooo~ Do both of us like each other? Or she just happen to know that i like her that much? ohhh god, please help me...what was her thinking at that time? I need to know...such desperate and miserable I'm, until now, and maybe until i meet her again.

i don't wanna hide the truth that I'm desperate of her, I'm miserable...but i like the feeling. I like being miserable and desperate like this...Some people might say, "Why are u so miserable and desperate just because of a girl u barely even know?"...seriously, i don't have the answer for that.

maybe one day, when i was old and have children or grand-children, i have a story to tell to my young ones...i used to like one girl who blushed when i smiled...

Don't Get Me Started...

U know what...I hate UMS. Yes, u heard it right, I HATE UMS...Sorry to say, but if u are about to hire someone for a job..never hire a Sabahan. Period.

4 years i've been here and nothing's changed. The third-class mentality, together with third-class work ethic covered in a one big first class cover. It's like u are paying the business class seat in MAS for a seat in AirAsia flight...It is a case of style over substance, really.

People in Peninsula said that,"eii..untung ko kan...UMS kn lawa. Mesti hari2 pegi dating..", sorry folks but u are badly wrong. Being in UMS is such a hell-bent experience...being a state in an island (Borneo is a third largest island in the world), the weather is so unpredictable...u can have a burning hot day, rainy day and storm all in a period of 6 hours. And i always wish on that kind of day...i'll be cruising around in my car.

Unluckily, i can't use my car for now...so i have to take a bus ride. And a bus ride from IP is the one u really want to avoid, seriously. Because UMS is like every other varsities in Malaysia, so the intake of female students are rocketing up during these past few years...and usually, we need to lock in the battle to enter the bus at the peak hour.

U know what...female students are far more superior than their male counterpart...KAMI PULAK YANG MALU, KAMU TAU TAK?! They use their most valueable 'assets' to get us cornered. The bus driver, the luckiest bastard alive because doing no work at all and still getting paid at the end of the month, always being bias to us...male student. Ko ingat perempuan tu nak tidor dengan ko ke kalo ko kasi dia naik bas dulu? Such a dumbass.

And this morning, particularly 9.30 a.m...i snapped. I've waited almost an hour for a bus to come. Then i have to stand up along the way to campus. When the bus arrived at SST, the bus seems want to move quickly from that bustop...and some dickheads entering the bus like there are no people are left to get out...then..WOI, STOP LA MANGKUK AKU NAK TURUN!!!...i yelled at the bus driver. Whole bus was so quiet...the bus driver stared at me..F u la, sekolah tak tinggi...

And then...CAN YOU ALL WAIT TILL ALL OF US GET OUT FIRST, SUCH A STUPID STUDENTS...i cursed the lot who enter the bus without waiting for all people get out first...some are staggered, some still tersenyum2 macam kerang busuk...Ikut kan hati, rasa nak tumbuk pun ada...Don't think i couldn't punch u just because u are a woman...seriously. Ask Julie Dahlia...

So, moral of the story is...don't get me started...i'm a swearing enthusiats and become foul-mouthed when i'm very, very angry...Don't say i didn't tell you.

no guts, no glory...or is it?

:: why sabah is soooo hot? especially at the sea... ::

adoii~ this week supposed to be a very tiring one for me. kawan2 nak konvo, both in Sabah and Semenanjung. but since i'm in Sabah and currently i'm working on my experiments, i think i have to attend my friends who will be here...Amir, Rihanna, Uncle, Mat, Cheng and many more (there's too many...and i'm too lazy to write) will be here. Cadangnya nak grad sama2, tapi biasa la...aku kan kurang rajin...satu sem amek 15 jam kredit je...hahaha~

too many changes in this particular U lately. Gone are the days where every student had to run here and there just to meet the lecturers. Email trus...so easy and simple. No wonder most of the student are getting fatter...and i'm afraid that will include me as well. Not many people i know in this U anymore. Only a handful, and i'm more shy than 3-4 years ago. I dont know why...

For example. I never having tough times starting a chit-chat with stranger, especially women. But this sem, i feel i'm so shy to communicate....kalo nak cakap dengan member pun balik2 beterabur je ayat. And now i'm staying in Indah Permai, that oh-i-am-so-shy syndrome would never help me at all...I always want to come here, where all the finest chicks are available...hahaha~

There's a girl i marked from the very beginning of this semester. She lives in IP, apparently and she got that oh-so-cute smile and she tend to blush when i smile at her...Annoyingly, i never talk to her...and i think i need the guts of Achilles to say 'hi!' to her...oh, where's my courage gone? Gone together with Rihanna, my so-skinny-ex girlfriend? c'mon...she didn't love me now...and i don't love her. enough said...no guts no glory eh? i hope that girl have guts to start a conversation with me...hahahaha~

:: please, i don't wanna go to the open sea again...::

how hard can it be?

well, nothing really...i just encountered some old boffins at SST and they seems like to be very unprofessional...they tend to get their head over everything, panas baran tak bertempat...

How hard could it be to curb your anger...if i can do it, why can you?

500 bucks shopping spree~

:: i smell good~ ::

what do you expect when a guy when shopping? yes, we shopping very rarely, very seldomly...but we spent alot, and things we bought were still in our budget-line...i think so~

well, let's recap on what i bought this weekend. i bought a solvi titus pair of glasses, a bottle of acqua di gio 350ml (i dont really remember, what i know it is the same perfume i bought all over again), and a present for a very special lady in my life...she doesnt want to be called as girlfriend, so i call her woman-friend (bleh?)...all i can say that the present is very small, and in her favorite color...green. people say that, smaller things costs you more...well, i think the my present is bespoke with the lady...you do need diamond rings with to close the deal with woman (sorry la mr.Big, i stole your words...)...but p.s, i'm still single..ok? Dont make a speculation about us!

the more important bits this weekend is that i watched 'Sex and The City' twice! haha~ Very funny indeed, me myself i cant believe i watch that particular movie twice. I never watch a movie twice, apart from movies in my laptop which i watched all over again every other time...For your information, i'm a big fan of this movie because i watched the series until the end of it about 4-5 years ago. At that time, i'm still so young and struggling to understand why those educated women (Carrie, Miranda, Charlotte and Sam) have so much trouble in finding true love...sometimes it is not hard when you take one thing at a time but being 'educated', those girls tend to freak-out when problems come around...the problems is not their men, but sometimes lies within themselves.

Until now, i still believe that womans' worst enemy are their bestfriends...gilrfriends. sorry girls, but that's how things panned out. Yes, they are the one you can turn to when you are in trouble...That's ironic, You put your head on the person who give you problems' shoulder. The first time i watched the movie, i felt bad being a guy...it was so sad that Big didnt have guts to marry Carrie, but things like this do happen. Because after marriage, it is the husband who take the beating alot...and we never tell, hoping our woman already knew. We never act like girls, saying every other time that we should understand, or try, or try to learn understand their feelings...oh no~

Second time i watched that movie...i learn that love is all around. Choose the best. And the thing, the most important thing in this movie is...shit happen. Dont care how much you love, how much you care...we tend to screwed it up. Even at the very last minute, the moment of truth. We can deny that fact.

Women said that men have big ego, and it echoes thru my head every now n then...Then i ask, why our ego is so unspeakable you girls always talk about it? How about yours? Do you ever give a thought about it? to curb it? rather than blaming male egos? Yes, i have ego...a big one. But not as big as some girls i met before. And they rather talk about us...our ego, our this and that. Do you understand us? since that femalution (female-revolution), women never understand us. I bet you dont know. We are also human, we make mistakes but that doesnt give you license to punish us...We punish ourselves more than you could think, besides those jerks who called themselves a 'man'...

You must know how to differentiate a man and a man-wannabe. They are different. Me? i'm still in-progress...i really hope my 'Carrie' will love my 'diamond ring'...I cant afford Manolo Blahnik, but a bitten apple should do fine for Mr.Big...mr.big belly,haha~

:: ever thine, ever mine, ever ours~ ::

We Isn't That Bad...Really?

Last night was the match all The Blues supporters have been waiting for a long time...Their star-studded team, featuring Deco, Anelka, The Cole brothers, Ashley and Joe (they are NOT brothers, ok...), John Terry and Co. versus B Sathianathan boys... As i expected, we've lost...But amazingly just 2 goals were conceded, and we nearly caught them by surprise...Amirul Hadi with two clear-cut chances which gone away, no thanks to pathetic finishing.

What i'm trying to say that, after 90 minutes of gameplay Malaysia football team wasn't that bad at all. Chelsea is a star-studded team and i supposed they steamrolled past us with a big-goal margin...Felipao said that his team cant play with a rugged field like that...c'mon man, what a stupid excuses...if our kampong boys can play on it, why cant your super team? Is this 'petanda buruk' for Chelsea this coming season?

Bear in mind that Malaysia team is without mercurial Kyrill Muhymeen (am i spelled it right?), the winger blessed with ridiculous speed and immense talent because he was tired (apparently), so the coach have to let him go. And also Titus James Palani, the only Malaysian that i know playing outside Malaysia. have Titus on the left and Kyrill on the right...what a deadly combination on the paper (of course only on the paper, i never see Titus play).

I believe, if the coaching is right, players keep their discipline in-check, our players have chance to go places...maybe World Cup in 2014? Who knows...

I wanna all of you to think this...Eventhough we supports Chelsea, Arsenal or Man Utd that doesnt mean we have to back them when they play against our national team...Support our national team. We wasnt that dreadful anyway...

:: Even if Arsenal played against Malaysia, I still support 'Harimau Malaysia' ::

so sick~

:: nokia yang chokiak ::

i feel so sick...this is the second time my phone had a virus...and it keep re-starting until the battery's depletes and become hot...usually i charge my phone close to me but this week, i have to charge it away from me...about ten yards from anybody. i'm so afraid it will blow and somebody become blind because of it...

This is our world...more and more technology is created, innovated or re-invented just to make our life easier, i suppose...but, the backlash from that is things get so vulnerable and penetrable from 'anasir-anasir'...damn, i wish the technology make our life simpler.

I soo feel cheated when an advertisement said that their product(s) can make your life simpler, easier and whatever that is...but in turn, the device itself was so complicated you dont bother to send it back to the shop just to redeem the warranty. The technician will tell you lots of things you dont even know exists, and things you dont even wanna know...this thing had fallen off, so we need to open this and we charge it sekian2 ringgit or this thing terbakar la because of that thing had fallen of because somebody send a virus to your phone maybe accidentally...seems very easy to me to make money~ I should looking for a new phone by now.

I wish when a manufacturer say that their product(s) can make your life easier...they really mean it...I still didnt find one. Proton is another company that i like to point out...haha~ MB terengganu said that their 4-years old Perdana fleet is costlier to maintain than Merc E200k...Which one do i believe? The MB or the boffins at Proton? I think I couldnt believe anyone of them...

Why? Well, most of us know that the new millenia Proton is amazingly disgusting...Waja, Perdana with Alfa Romeo-like nostrils and Gen2 to name a few...How many problems all the customers have encountered over the years? Even my father, a nationalist in everything he buy, have run out of beliefs in Proton...His second car was also a Proton, and it drives very well the maintenance was so astronomical, even more than our fleet of Toyota's combined...a Waja maintenance for 4 years is almost the same with Yaris and Altis combined...Can you believe that? I dont wanna believe but that is the truth...

For almost 20 years after introducing the power window to their cars, Protons still struggling to rectify the problem while Skoda sells really fast and their cars wasnt bad at all...cheaper too, for a continental car. So many problems with Protons...what does their engineers do for all these years? Sleeping? Make ear-wax? We are the only car maker, that sold their cars in Britain, still making cars with the technology 20 years, not ahead but back...Thank god Iswara has now been replace...

I wanna the reliability come back to Proton...The reliabilty sells, i hope they knew that already. I hope my phone maker also knew that~

:: i wanna buy a Hummer, on sale now in Malaysia ::

THE DARK KNIGHT LOVER...

:: i say that one at the top is THE Batman lover ::

I just came back from One Borneo...jalan sorang sorang, tengok pemandangan (pemandangan?) and most of all, mau tengok Dark Knight...Three of my friends endorsed me to watch this movie which they reckoned to be 'sangat best'...yup, i couldnt agree more with them...This one from Chris Nolan is by far the Batman i've ever seen in my life...Tim Burtons' introduction about Joker nearly 20 years ago is more like 'film-noir'...and I dont like that.

The late Heath Ledger as Joker really turns the story on...He's even better than legendary Jack Nicholson, but i still maintain that I really wanna see Jim Carrey in that role...His laughter can make you nuts! Kudos to late Mr. Ledger...

Michael Caine as the ever-faithful Alfred is full with words of wisdom...His one-liner is very meaningful. The Bruce Wayne himself is not bad at all...I do wanna see more of Aaron Eckhart in Two-Face...So sorry he died too soon...eventhough not as soon as Rachel...

Well, i'm not very into Batman i suppose...i'm more into Spidey...or Ironman. And Chris Nolan really makes me angry when he smashed the Lamborghini Reventon replica in the movie..Damn! that car is so beautiful to ended up like that.

If you all really wanna know about this caped-crusader or Dark Knight...ask his lover. Her name is Nur Ain Fadlina Zawawi...She know him even more than anyone else...Even buku Mari Mewarna dia pun is full of Batman..and Robin..huhu~

:: enough with movies...on with study ::

saya di tagged oleh nurain fadlina zawawi...

Nama-nama timangan anda:
1. Abang Han by the sisters.
2. Along by parents.
3. Han by big family
4. Pokeh by SASians (warriors 9903 rocks bebeh!)
5. Dearie by ehem2*
6. Hans by UMS colleagues.


Anda seorang yang?:
1. Pemalas.
2. Perokok sosial
3. Suka minum ABC milo jagung.
4. Suka tenung wanita2 hot.
5. Suka makan sebelum main ragbi.


Insan teristimewa dan kenapa?:
1. Banyak...i treat everyone really special but most of all my mama laaa...


Lagu kesukaan anda?:
1. Lagu empat minit- JT and Madonna
2. Jerk It Out - The Ceasars
3. 19/2000 - Gorillaz
4. Mas Que Nada - BEP and Sergio Mendes
5. and most of all...Come Fly With Me - Michael Buble


Makanan kegemaran anda?:
1. Mee bandung nenek Mon.
2. Nasi Lemak Makcik IP.
3. Mc'Ds Quarter Pounder (anip cakap k**e pondan,hehehe~)
4. Tom Yam Kung.
5. Ape je yang mama masak...


Warna kesukaan anda?:
1. Blue
2. Red
3. White
4. Black
5. Anthing in between that colors


Apakah yang membuatkan anda stress?:
1. Biatch
2. Kekurangan dana akibat kenaikan harga petrol
3. Naik bas sebab takda duit isi minyak keta.
4. Bas pulak seperti haram judas.
5. Sampai lambat ke kuliah dan menjadi perhatian ramai.



3 benda dalam beg anda?:
1. Sekotak marlboro lights (just in case jadi sangap) dan lighter laaa....
2. Test pad.
3. Sebatang pen.


Kali terakhir anda menangis dan kenapa?:
1. sorry...saya sangat susah nak menangis...sedih dan dipaksa macamana sekalipon tak nak jugak menangis...ala, tak leh tipu ke? yela2...
bila: tak ingat la...dah dekat 1 sem...
tempat: padang ragbi UMS
tarikh: yang saya tahu...tahun 2007
hari: hari khamis sebab siang tu aku gaduh dengan lecturer...ketulahan kot.
sebab: bahu sebelah kanan 'dislocate' untuk kali yang ke berapa entah.


Tagged berapa ramai kawan anda:
1. Kelly BFF
2. Cici da Aussie hot chick
3. Marianne junior akua yang lawak
4. Atok Warriors 9903
5. Jaro Wanita Bekerjaya yang...ahahaha~

a batalion of frenchmen...

:: a glimpse of hope for the gunners ::

Right now, im still waiting the outcome of Adebayor future...Hleb's future lies in the heart of Catalonia capital...Adriano Galliani once said that either Ronaldinho or Adebayor will end up in Milan. With Ronny already completed his protracted transfer to San Siro, Adebayor now is mingling with Barca, following the footsteps of messers Henry and Hleb...

As a Gooner, do i feel bad?

Of course, who else wanna see their best players leave them in a jiffy...stating that life in London and playing in EPL is taking it's toll...they will never be best player. In barca, believe me, they are only overpaid mercenaries...

once i went to soccernet.com and most of the gooners came out with various problem-solving method to cure the lack of depth and experience in young, hot-blood gunners squad...this is my version.

forward: with adebayor leaving, Robin van Persie always get injured, Eduardo will be on the sidelines for 3-5months more...the Arsenal squad is lacking the bite in attack. despite Ade 24-goals last season, he was seriously out of puff coming the end of campaign and that cost us the league title...walcott should drop back at midfield replacing useless eboue in right-wing, leaving bendtner the only 1st choice striker...not looking good, but we can turn it around by having Adriano from Inter (on loan to Sao Paulo) or Radamel Falcao Garcia from River Plate...Im the big fan of two since my Football Manager years...and they thoroughly excelled in their job, as a number 9, a marksman that will bring others into attack...Adriano maybe problematic, but as Wenger can turn a bad boy into saint (in the case of RVP), why he shouldnt to the same with adriano? Radamel is young kid...and wenger is world class mentor for youngsters...as both frm south america (one of them is problematic, plus Mourinho is building a team around Ibrahimovic)...they should come on a cheap...

midfield: the only part that i think the puzzle is already solved...flamini gone? step up denilson or diaby in CDM...hleb gone? Nasri is there...right-wing? convert walcott into a winger first...that will give him some first team experience..Fabregas cover? Ramsey is on loan back to Cardiff i suppose...maybe Ever Banega from Boca will come good to Emirates. he is cheap, an Argentinian international...play very well in Apertura and Copa Libertadores. need i say more?

defence: im not a big fan of Arsenal back four...especially when Senderos, Gallas or Song played altogether...very, very weak. so weak that even retired back four of Tony Adams, Martin Keown, Nigel Winterburn and Lee Dixon is better then them in their Forties...sold Senderos and Gallas...please. Buy the likes of Mexes, or Steven Taylor to replace them...give the armband to Toure, he's more loyal and truly professional...unlike Gallas.

'Keeper: Almunia and Fabianski...i can live with that.

:: ARSENAL JUST HAPPY TO KEEP AFLOAT, THATS WHY WE ARE FRUGAL ::

sorry, sorry, SORRY!

:: han nak yang macam ni mak...bleh laaa ::

sorry kerana tiada talian internet...sekali dapat online rasa macam itik dapat air, macam monyet dapat pisang and macam handhallah dapat pempuan...hahahaha~





this is just some recap from the days i went M.I.A...





24th-26th june...nothning really happen i supposed. just bersiap2 nak balik and antar my sis ke kota samarahan.





27th-29th june...kat sarawak la...my sis roommates ada yang cun...malang nya, orang sarawak la plak...xmo jauh..dengar my mum mengeluh anak2 dia belajar jauh2...





30th june...sampai kat UMS yg silakak ini.





1st-6th july...dorman stage of life...uruskan surat-menyurat dalam tdo...membangkitkan isu proton savvy dengan bonda.





7th july...daftar kursus dan hantar surat...semakin popular dengan PA dekan SST..jumpa anne time nak daftar...xtanya plak bila dia nak kawen.





8th july...cis bedebah punya JAKMAS...aku nak duduk kat mane 2 minggu ni? nak aku buat khemah ke?nasib baik ada kawan2 yang tinggal di rumah kosong...means ada bilik kosong...layannn...





9th-11th july...jumpa dr.mabel, dr.pushpa, mr.ken, mr.abentim and dr.sitti...rasa semakin popular...





12th july...baru aku tau apsal aku popular...aku EXTEND rupenye...cissss~

:: ape ko tak reti nak abis blaja ke? ::

Hey! I Put My New Shoes On...

:: finally, a b'day present...thanks to anip and mama ::

Wahaha...aku rase happy sesgt sebab dpt present. A new pair of shoe, the label says "adidas AdiPure"...Rase macam Kaka pon ada..Sbenanye ni cam kasut futsal, tapi disebabkan kasut2 camni la yang sedap di bawa berjalan-jalan, mmg kasut camni la yang menjadi pojaan hatiku..huhu~

Dengan ada nya kasut ni, it marked the end of my Nike Mercurial Vapor...A very loyal companion of lot. Vapor tu la bawak gi dating, bawak gI main futsal, bawak gi vacation, bawak gi kuliah, bawak gi naik gunung...Macam2 tmpat kasut tu pnah jejak selama 3 tahun aku pakai dia..Tapi serius la aku tak kan buang kasut tu.

Call me sentimental, tapi 2 kasut aku sebelum ni, Vapor dgn Puma Roma tu, memang banyak kenangan...Bila terpandang kasut2 ni la, aku teringat balik saat2 dgn kawan2, dgn 'gf-gf', dgn family...pahit or manis...such a bittersweet memories...

Thanks a lot Vapor, welcome to the family AdiPure...

:: HULK BESH SANGAT2, HANCOCK MISTI BESH GAK KANN? ::

B'day Boy, Be My Baby...

:: alahai...cedapnyew cake ni...kalo la dapat... ::

Alahai...sedap kan cake kat atas tu. Huhu, cadangnya nak beli cake camtu la...Tapi ko tau, RM 80. Ape ko nak mamposs? Dah la makan 3-4 orang je, memang tak berbaloi la. Thank you to all of you, your wishes and all makes me happy being older...=)

So...to kick start the celebration...Here a dengarlihatrasa.blogspot.com special edition post..wahaha~ Last night, time tengah duk pikir punya pikir nak buat apa, Maddy sms me...The sms sounded like this..."Han...I got a Q for ya...camne nak tau yang you really love the person? I mean mcmane nak bezakan ' repeated responsibility syndrome' & " voluntary care'? Kalo xda kedit jwb kat fs pun bleh =x...".

Well maddy, for me it is like this...Repeated responsibilty syndrome and Voluntary Care are very hard to differentiate...1st, it could or should be voluntary care when the relationship is still new (weeks-3 or 4 months). What ever you do with your partner are so voluntary...Kadang2, your bf tak suruh pun u buat itu dan ini, tapi u insists something must be done..okay, this is when ur partner didnt expect what will happen. Sebagai contoh, ur bf birthday is in 3 weeks time. Dia tak mintak pape pun kat u, but u insists yang dia mesti dapat hadiah dari u. so, there u are, voluntary care. u wanna make him happy, u are soo volunteered to give him present. And he doesnt expecting that.

The repeated responsibility syndrome only occur to partnership or relation that last for a year or more. At this time, the voluntary act is waning...All u know, u start to 'realize' that in order to keep the relationship between u and him intact, u do things that u feel it is ur responsibility, and u are hoping that he will do things that u might think as his responsibility. Back to the birthday situation, and this is after a year..When giving a present last year, ur bf start to wonder what present he will get next year from u...Now, he is EXPECTING.

See...it's hard to see b'coz not all couples will kiss and tell everything they feel to their partner. U will never know what ur bf is expecting unless u talk to him..Both syndrome is good for relationship. If u feel u are doing both of it, and u are really in love with him...Not one, but BOTH!

My thoughts, really...sumtimes scared me a little~

:: Thank You So Much To Mia...You Are Such A Star ::

AYAH, ANDA MEMANG CARA!

:: ayah ku askar "wa...tahniah" ::

Asalnya aku tak tau pon hari ni (ke semalam?) adalah hari mengingati bapa...Ayah aku pon takda pon kesah sangat pasal hari bapa ni, aku pon malas nak cara...Aku rase laki ni memang macam tu la. Kita ni tak perlu sangat nak sambut ape-ape just untuk meluahkan rasa sayang or terima kasih kepada lelaki lain, khusus nya bapa and anak lelaki...

Aku dengan ayah aku takda la rapat sangat sebenarnye...Kami selalu sangat berselisih pendapat, kalo aku kat rumah tu, kalo tak ada 'perang', memang tak sah...Yang menjadi mangsa nya mak and adik-adik aku...Adik-adik aku lagi la, diorang lagi suka kalo mak yang merajuk dengan ayah, sebab nanti ayah akan berusaha sedaya upaya dia nak pujuk mak dan secara tak langsung kami buat benda pelik2 pon dia tak berapa nak kesah sangat..hahaha~

Tapi...Kalo aku dan ayah yang konflik, satu rumah tak aman. Adik-adik kena marah dengan ayah, dengan aku pon...Mak pening kepala macamane nak kasi aman rumah tu..Kadang2 bila di fikir balik, lawak pon ada. Walopon ayah aku seorang yang tegas dengan anak anak nye, aku tau dia buat sume tu for a purpose. Kalo dia tak tegas dengan aku, tak mungkin la aku masuk Alam Shah, tak mungkin la aku bole blaja kat UMS ni...Ntah jadi ape aku pon tak tau.

Dari kecik lagi aku disuruh berdikari by my dad...Kalo cuti dia suruh aku balik kampung tolong atuk kat kebun sawit, masa skolah rendah pergi tuisyen sendiri naik bas (dari umor 10 tahun dah pandai naik bas sorang2), and yang paling penting ayah aku ajar..."orang lain nak susah kan kita, takpe...jangan kita susah kan orang lain.". Aku rasa sebab tu la ayah aku tak kasi aku amek PTPT-pu, sebab dia tak nak anak dia yang belum tentu ada kerja nanti ni berhutang sampai RM21 ribu dengan orang yang tak dikenali..huhu~

Dulu, aku rasa ayah aku kasar sangat dengan aku nak dibandingkan dengan cara dia layan adik-adik aku...Now, I realize that dengan anak laki memang tak boleh kasi muka sangat..Nanti banyak benda bodoh yang aku buat. Lagi pun, dah memang aku anak lelaki tunggal, sulung lagi tu, so memang kena didedahkan dengan sense of responsibility dari kecik lagi...Fathers' love, is a fathers' love...It's different.

To Kapten (W) Haji Mohd Zakaria b. Ahmad, thank you for all your hardwork as a great and loving father to Handhallah, Zarith Zahrah, Zarith Zahirah, Zarith Nazirah and Zarith Nazifah...Seribu tahun pun kami tak dapat nak balas jasa dan cinta ayah kepada kami lima beradik. We all love you so much! Dan kami BERIKRAR (adik-adik, angkat tangan kanan) tak akan hampakan harapan yang ayah letak kan pada kami..AMIN...

:: FATHERS' LOVE, IS A FATHERS' LOVE...IT'S DIFFERENT ::

Gadis Gedik Plus Horny Guys...

Walawehh...Bosan gile ah duk dalam rumah je...Nak jejalan, duit tiada...Kesedihan melanda,kuang kuang kuang...Actually, i got nothing to share today. This post meant for a couple of days ago but since i've got no material to write about plus ada sedikit masalah berkenaan sewa rumah, it makes me so lazy to post a new one..Lagi pon terlalu sibuk menyiapkan persediaan untuk semester depan...Nak cari housemate baru untuk menggantikan mereka-mereka yang telah pergi meninggalkan kita (macam mati la pulak!), yuran, surat-menyurat, buy this and that..banyak benda nak kena pikiaq (kata cik rihanna)...

But, since aku selalu sangat meng'online'kan diri...Banyak perkara yang mampu menjana otak 'seafood' aku ni...Harga minyak naik, dah komen...Spain menang, dah komen...France kene blasah? No comment on that...Tapi yang paling mengujakan untuk ditaip ialah pasal social sites ni...huhu~...Social sites like Friendster, MySpace, Hi5, FaceBook, Flickr...Banyak lagi la..And, about couple of months ago i join this site called "TAGGED"...

At the first place, nothng special about this TAGGED thing..It is more like FS and MS wannabe..Interface pon tak lawa and kemas, tak banyak yang kita boleh tambah untuk mencantikkan profile kita..Still heluva space need to be improvise..Tapi, pas 2 bulan berada dalam komuniti TAGGED ni baru aku sedar kenapa banyak sangat orang pakai this particular site...

Site ni dipenuhi oleh perempuan gedik yang mintak anda men'top-up'kan untuk kegunaan meraka serta lelaki2 tua tak sedar diri yang cuba mengambil kesempatan...I say nothing more than that. If u all nak tau, sila layari site tersebut...

Bagus sebenarnya social sites or online community ni...Boleh tambah kenalan, or mana tau boleh tersangkut dengan mana2 'lengchai' or 'lenglui'...huhu~ Tapi the downside is tak sume orang dalam community sites ni yang betul2 nak berkawan..Kadang2 suka amek kesempatan je..It is up to us how to use it responsibly and to trust which one of those people..huhu.

It is good...But berhati-hati, ok?

:: Used To Fall IN LOVE With Myself ::

ME? SHOPPING? OH YOUR GOD...

:: sapetang di WARISAN SQUARE ::

Oh shopping, kenape la aku tak minat shopping...Pelik bile gadis2 hangat yang pernah di 'dating'i suke sangat bershopping...Adakah ianya satu bentuk riadah yang sangat berfaedah dan mampu membina stamina mereka? Atau ianya satu alasan untuk keluar dating? Aku rase pegi shopping bersama pempuan adalah satu alasan untuk kita (orang laki) menjadi kuli mereka sepanjang hari...

Haha...takde laa...Aku tak minat bershopping sebab bukan ada benda sangat pon nak di beli. Kalo pegi setakat nak pusing2 satu mall baik tak payah..Main futsal lagi bagosss.Tapi, ada la satu hari yang agak membosankan ni, aku gagahkan diri yang sememangnye gagah ni untuk berjalan2 melihat alam, perempuan juga haiwan...Kat KK ni memang banyak shopping mall, and ada certain standard untuk mall2 tersebut...Ada mall kurang upaya, ada mall sederhana, ada mall kelas menengah and ada mall kelas atasan, yang penuh dengan butik tapi haram takda yang pegi pon..LOSER!!

Benci betul (kalo yang gedik akan cakap "mennccciiii!!") bile ada orang cakap KK ni mundur..HELLO! Kat sini banyak gile hotspots untuk shopping dan berdarmawisata...I think, KK is one of the best city i ever live in..Lots of malls, nightspots, beaches, islands...Ada ke tempat lain kat Malaysia ni macam KK? Nope, i guess..Berbalik ke topik asal which is shopping, i went to this new mall in town called Warisan Square. Compared to other malls in town, yang ni agak pelik sket. It is more like an closed bazaar..payah la nak cakap. Senang cam ni laa..Kat mall slalu nye tak bole smoke kan? Kat sini boleh dan digalakkan..huhu~ Kat Warisan Square ni banyak butik sket la berbanding 20 years old Centrepoint kat sebelah tu...So, bole la kalo nak window shopping. Fancy food and beverages outlet pon banyak kat sini...Kira WS ni standard dia antara One Borneo (very fancy) and Centrepoint (not so fancy)..So just nice la kalo stakat nak jalan2 window shopping je.huhu~ Macam tak pecaye lak aku pegi window shopping..I think it is not a big deal to many, tapi untuk aku yang malas gile kuar rumah ni, it is such a big news..huhu~ Lainkali aku cite pasal jejalan kat One Borneo plak ek...Skang ni OB baru je soft opening, so maybe next week baru aku jejalan kat sane plak...=)

:: quicksilver boutiques are everywhere, and i'm craving for those hats!!! ::

LA FURIA ROJA!!! PLUS ZAPPY ZLATAN!!!

:: despite the march of soviet army men towards them, it's LA FURIA ROJA who fired first following this blistering counter attack. Torres and Villa work in tandem, 1-0 to Espana ::

:: another counter attack, Iniesta defence-splitting pass found on-the-run Villa who slotted home. 2-0 to Espana ::

:: "how could we stop him?"...Villa completed his hat-trick, thanks to Fabregas assist. 3-0 to Espana and the match looked like a forgone conclusion ::



:: eventhough Pavlyuchenko pulls one back with a thumping header, it's Fabregas who have the last laugh (and so all the girls who admiring him). Final score, La Furia Roja 4, Soviet Army 1. ::

:: "TAKE THAT YOU EFFING GREEKS GEEKS!"...Zlatan with a thunder shot that flew past Antonis 'Clooney' Nikopolidis that ended his 3 year international goal-drought, and change the game around ::

:: ITALIANS MAYBE WORLD CHAMP, BUT THAT WAS SOO 2 YEARS AGO ::

cemerlang, gemilang, TEMBERANG!!!!!

Asal nye, memang aku nak rehat dari menaip dalam blog untuk beberapa ketika...Ada urusan yang perlu diselesaikan...Jemputan kenduri pon banyak...Tapi bila 'kera'jaan buat perangai dengan "mengurangkan" subsidi petrol dan diesel, aku rase dah cukup la aku mendiamkan diri...The big question is, "Apa hang buat ni Pak Lah? Hang dah nyanyuk ka?".

Dia dan kerajaan dia kasi naik petrol sampai 2.70, diesel sampai 2.50...Diorang ni tak tau ke rakyat dah banyak yang sengsara? Ini belum isu Baitulmal banyak duit tapi yang merempat makin ramai, isu minyak ni boleh bikin satu negara gempar...Stesen minyak penuh dengan orang sampai sesak satu highway...Bila diberitahu minyak dah habis, ada yang bertumbuk dengan attendant petrol pump. Pak Lah suka ka macam ni?

Dia cakap dia kasi kurang subsidi petrol sebab nak seimbangkan dengan subsidi2 yang lain...Jangan nak temberang kami la, ada satu subsidi yang agak tak masuk akal...subsidi roti. Subsidi roti? Dah ada subsidi tepung sampai setengah bilion yang pegi subsidi roti tu kenapa? Tak kan la aku yang extend ni kena fikir hal negara pulak...Kenaikan harga bahan bakar ni akan ada kesan domino pada benda lain..contoh nya.

1. Ramai orang akan mintak naik gaji sebab nak pegi keja naik motor pon dah sengsara. Apa lagi yang naik keta. Subsidi RM 625 setahun untuk keta bawah 2000cc? Awak ingat keta ni minyak dia RM50 ke sebulan?

2. Mapley2 mesti nak naik kan harga roti canai, silap2 sekeping RM2.00...Kita kan ada subsidi roti, cuba guna untuk roti canai, boleh tak?

3. Segala barangan mesti melambung...tak kisah lah barangan keperluan atau yang saja2 kita nak, sebab kos transport dah tinggi.

4. Family yang anak kecik2 or tengah belajar lagi, family ni la yang paling sengsara...Nak bayar yuran sekolah, yuran itu, yuran ini..gaji tak naik2 pon. Kena berpiket secara aman pon belum tentu gaji naik. Kalo buat demonstrasi haram kang masuk I.S.A pulak...celaka betul!

5. Kerajaan cakap, kalo tak mampu bayar duit minyak, naik la kenderaan awam. Kepala Hotak Awak! Time peakhour punya la payah nak masuk komuter or LRT, awak nak suruh rakyat mati kene pijak ke? Nak naik bas? Berapa banyak syarikat bas yang gulung tikar sebab harga minyak naik...sebab diorang kena tanggung kos operasi yang tinggi...bukan harga minyak diesel je, gaji driver bas pon nak kena naik jugak..

6. Awak nak suruh rakyat naik kenderaan awam kan? Jangan hairan la kalo lepas ni PROTON & PERODUA bengkrap...dah, sume nak naik kenderaan awam. Kat Malaysia ni je la keta kita ni laku, kat UK...jangan harap orang nak beli.

Banyak lagi isu yang akan timbul nanti...tunggu je la.

Kenapa aku letak gambar V FOR VENDETTA? Korang pernah tengok cite ni tak? Atau tau jalan ceritanya macamana? Kalau tak tau, tanya la pada yang pernah tengok. MARI KITA TUNJUK PADA KERAJAAN, INI NEGARA SIAPA! AKU TAK TAKUT NAK PENGGAL KEPALA PEMIMPIN YANG TAK GUNA OTAKNYA UNTUK KESEJAHTERAAN RAKYAT!

:: PEOPLE SHOULDN'T BE AFRAID OF THEIR GOVERNMENT, GOVERNMENT SHOULD BE AFRAID OF THEIR PEOPLE ::

Nasi Ambak and The Undergraduates...

This is a tale of the most common dish for lowly-paid or budget individuals in Sabah and its most common customers...The undergrads of UMS or Universiti Masalah Selalu. Coz' the varsity they are in is so problematic, most of them have to consume nasi ambak...which is the easiest way to comply with their tight budget before the PTPTN money is in...Nasi ambak only costs you around RM 2.50...It consists of white rice (dah masak la), two, deep-fried chicken wings, a spoonful of sambal (boleh tambah), and a small bowl of soup.



Nasi ambak is the epitome of UMS students life. It's just adequate, cheap, but it still can make you full (dasar makan banyak)...The price is so low, which is a direct antagonist to the city where everything is sooo, damn, expensive...The only thing that supposed to be cheap in this city is seafood, but still the chicken wings only cost you RM3-4 per kilo...A lot cheaper than seafood.



I fell in love with this thing...But now, Nasi ambak have changed. Its price hiking up to RM3.50. Not many student buy it today, well not many do know Nasi ambak exists...Sebab dah same cam makan kat kafe, so buat ape susah2 nak pegi kampung likas just to buy "nasi orang miskin" yang dah jadi makanan exclusive...baik la masak sindri..huhu~


So, i make up my mind...i went to recently-opened One Borneo (damn, it's a lot larger than midvalley!), and i bought coriander, some garlic, other spices (banyak sangat, aku malas nak taip), and most importantly...MUTTON SHOULDER bebeh! It's been a while since aku beria sangat nak masak...I wanna make Jamie Olivers' signature dish (konon!)...spicy mutton soup...huhu~ I think it would be lovely! (tiru cara Jamie cakap)...


The days where i'm hugely depend on nasi ambak are long before me...Bukan la aku cakap aku kaya nak mampus, tapi cooking is the only thing that i can do to express myself...even my friends here sooo damn crave my cooking...Aku rase takda la sedap sangat berbanding Nenek Mon's recipes...Tapi when they praise me for i've done with my cooking, i forget all the troubles and problems surronding me at that time...


Nape aku masak skang? Ada problem ke? Ada la my childhood friend ni, kalo dia merajuk punye la payah nak pujuk..Boleh lupe lak b'day dia (im sooo sory la dear...huu~). I'm so busy with this and that, tapi i know itu bukan la excuse nye...So, aku fikirla mcmane la nak 'memenangi' hati dia semula...Mane tau, time memasak nanti dapat idea nak beli ape...kannn?

:: WANNA TASTE AUSSIE FOOD SO BADLY, CICI HELP ME! ::

what i ALWAYS expect...

:: BIGGER THAN MY BODY ::

I always expect, people will answer my calls even on wee hours in the morning.

I always expect, people will accept me as I am whereever and whenever i go.

I always expect, the person will love me as much as I love her.

I always expect, I'm not alone.

I always expect, I'm better intellectually than others.

I always expect, that I can push forward even harder.

I always expect, that I'm fearless.

I always expect, world is far more forgiving than afterlife.

I always expect, my friends will sit around me and tell me stories.

I always expect, that I can kill the friggin' mosquitoes in my room.

I always expect, that my stamina is second to none.

I always expect, that I've smouldering sex appeal.

I always expect, girls will answer my messages and calls.

I always expect, England will qualify for EURO 2008, eventhough I'm ardent Argentinians supporter.

I always expect, person I love will kiss my forehead everytime before I go to sleep.

I always expect, I don't need peoples' help.

I always expect, a bunch of idiotic whore will stay away from me.

I always expect...

I always expect, somebody will come and save me...

D I S K O.D A N S A

ELLO EBERIBODI!!!

Hari ni aku tak mau cakap panjang-panjang...

Tadi time surf-surf tenet dapat la idea untuk 'menyerlahkan' lagi blog yang tak seberapa gempak ni.

SO...Aku tambah lagu-lagu kat blog ni...hihi~ big news la sangat...

Aku sebenarnye takda la suke sangat dengan blog yang ada lagu-lagu ni, kekadang buat orang terkejut je haa....

Tapi disebabkan malas nak download untuk kegunaan sendiri, aku amek je la kat satu website ni. Boring boring, leh bukak blog sendiri...(Chewaaah!)

Ini adalah senarai tracks yang disediakan sebagai halwa telinga anda

Track 1. Ku Mahu Kau Tahu-Hujan

Track 2. Hey There Delilah-Plain White T's

Track 3. Oh Hiba-Hujan

Track 4. Overkill-Colin Hay

Track 5. Atas Nama Cinta-Flop Poppy

Track 6. Now That I Can See-Couple

Track 7. Kuala Lumpur-Hujan

Track 8. Dancin'-MC Syze

Track 9. Lagu Untukmu-Meet Uncle Hussein

Track 10. 19/2000-Gorillaz

Diharap kan anda semua terhibur dengan lagu-lagu yang diputarkan oleh DJ bertugas...ngeee~

Kalo ada lagu best yang ingin dikongsi dengan DJ, sila tinggalkan pesanan ringkas anda di ruangan 'BORAK-BORAK'.

Pesanan panjang tak akan dilayan...

:: NAK TENGOK ENGLAND VS U.S.A PAGI NI, NGEEE~ ::

Man With Less Regrets...

:: KINABALU MOUNTAIN FROM MANUKAN ISLAND ::

Couple of weeks ago, i went to Manukan island alone...Some might say, "Ape yang ko buat kat sane sorang?, bawak la awek-awek ke, kawan-kawan ke...". Sory guys, sometimes i need my own space and my own time to do whatever i want. Aku ke sana just to reflect what i have done all this while...And why i didnt regret over my decisions all these years..It's a bit like muhasabah diri, just between me, Manukan island, Kinabalu mountain and my god (segala pujian bagi ALLAH, tuhan sekalian makhluk)...

When i was alone, gazing the sun goes down, watching the panoramic view of Kinabalu's from a far makes me wonder...do i really have serious regrets in my life? Do i did things that makes people hates me? Am i easily fell down for the temptations? And it brings me to the biggest 'what if' question in my life...What if i could turn back the time so people will give a very serious consideration about me...

I always feel alone eventhough i'm not alone...But sometimes, it is the best thing ever happen to me, coz' aku tak menyusahkan orang lain. I'm so afraid that i could be the burden of someone else, turns out we need somebody's help at each turn of our life. I want to help people around me, and not the other way around. In the same time, i want people to take me seriously. If i'm a Law undergraduates from UIA, will people will give me the attention i've always crave? Person who know that i've once offered a place in UIA matriculation for syaria's law may always questions my decision not to accept it, instead i stayed in KPM matriculation that turns out to disastrous by my own standards. Do i regret it? Never in a lifetime...

Then, i enrolled into UMS...Much farther then my family thought. My mum nearly used her 'inner connection' to get me into UiTM, but i refused. I said, "Ini lah masa nya nak buktikan yang aku bole hidup jauh dari family"...Then, my parents agreed. But, when i'm here, i never taste the opportunity to meet my family every week. I can't use my lovely Satria (which was sold last year to some teacher) often, I can't push my sisters forward when they were in major examinations, I can't have a good time with all my friends who study in any varisities in Klang Valley, news about what happen now and then reached me at very late stage, and most importantly, i can't met Ijoy my cousin who passed away last year (Al-fatihah to him)...But still, do i have any regret...None.

So, why in the name of god i came here, in Manukan island? What i need to reflect to? Is my life so dull, even i didnt give it the serious of the considerations? No, i realize that my life is so colorful...So colorful that not many have a life like me. I would never trade my life for someone elses. I'm happy coz' thing might be even worse if i'm a law student, studying in Peninsula or anything. I'm clumsy, no denying that fact...But i'm proud to say that by the time goes by, i'm wiser in my decision-making. Even if I stutter in my own words, or choking on my own spit, I'm glad that i'm not the ego-maniacal person i used to be...

The only thing that i regret in my life is falling in love with my ex-girlfriend elder sister. I'm not cut it to be hers, and never will be. She's very responsible, caring and loving person...But one thing i realize is that we could never be together...If we get together somehow in the future, what am i supposed to say when i meet her mum? What am i supposed to say when i see her sister, that happen to be my ex? What am i supposed to do? By the way, it is only a pipeline dream...She still have her boyfriend, whom she love so much eventhough that guy always make her 'makan hati'...And I always said,"Sabar la...dugaan je tu. Laki kan memang ego sket dalam bab-bab relationship ni.". And 'till now, i never ever tell her about my feelings, and i tend to keep it that way...Coz' loving somebody doesn't mean we must have that person. Putting a smile in her or his face for once is adequate already. Do i regret losing her? ermmm...It's hard to say.

:: LOVE IS A LOSING GAME ::

Owh Ragbi...

"Weh Hans, apsal ko tak main untuk UMS?"..."Macam mana aku nak main, asal team aku masuk semi ke, final ke, sure aku tak dapat main punye lah."..."Apsal lak?"..."Badan aku ni Alaa, dah macam orang tua-tua dah haa...tackle sket patah, tackle sket tercabut sane-sini"..."Ke ko dah takut?"...


Sory la kepada sesiapa yang view blog aku nih, dah 3 hari tak update...i think the conversation above tells you something. Dari hari Jumaat sampai la esok, kat UMS ni ada Masum 10's. Kepada sesiapa yang jahil, Masum 10's ni salah satu acara Sukan Masum 2, 2008. Sukan Masum ni ada 2 phase, satu dah lepas dah. Yang second phase kat UMS, and biase lah, ada la jumpe kawan-kawan yang main untuk Universiti-universiti lain ni. Ada la dua-tiga orang budak budak ni tanye aku, apsal tak main dah. Aku cakap dengan diorang, malas nak sakit2kan badan main ragbi dah. Biasa lah, kalo dari f2 main ragbi asik injured je, sape tak tensen...

Then, salah sorang kawan aku ni 'mempersoalkan' lah keputusan aku untuk 'retire' dari game ni...Alaa, memang aku takut. Aku takut kene operate. Bahu aku ni memang di ketahui ramai problem memanjang. Patah entah brape kali entah, 'dislocate' apetah lagi. Sampai bile aku balik K.L, Dr. Mona siap ugut aku lagi nak suh masuk operation, tampal plate besi kat sendi bahu aku, biar dah tak terlucut lagi...TAKUT WOOOO!!!!!

Mental aku dah tak focus pada game yang aku suka ni, Cikgu Rasi pon cakap macam tu tadi, sebab bile aku main, aku takut nak injured padahal bile game la kena 'all-out'...Asal aku ada awek, mesti diorang pon tak brape suka aku main jugak...Yelah, sape nak bf diorang asik-asik 'cacat' sementara je...Tapi at least, badan aku still cam ruggers lagi, heee~

Korang-korang je la main, skang aku jadi UMS Rafflesia Technical Advisor je, bole marah-marah orang...hahahaha...

:: HAPPY TO BE APART OF WARRIORS ALL-CONQUERING SIDE ::

Kalah Sorak, Kampung Tergadai...

:: KEDUDUKAN PULAU BATU PUTEH (PEDRA BRANCA) ::

"Pada 23 Mei 2008, Naib Presiden ICJ, Hakim Awn Shawkat Al-Khasawneh mengumumkan keputusan pembicaraan tersebut bahawa kedaulatan Pulau Batu Puteh adalah milik Singapura manakala Terumbu Karang Tengah dan Terumbu Karang Selatan diisytiharkan milik Malaysia."

Owh... Apa lah malang nasib ku ini. Sudah la bersorak pun kalah, kampung lagikan tergadai. Lebih malang dari Lebai Malang, lebih kodok dari Pak Kaduk, lebih dungu dari Pak Pandir. Petang tadi telah diumumkan, Pulau Batu Puteh yang selama ni menjadi objek perebutan antara Singapura (Little Israel) dan tanah tumpah darah kita semua, Malaysia telah menjadi hak milik sahih pihak jiran yang tak makan saman itu.

Kesian, kesian...Tapi nak buat macamana?? Itu lah hakikat bila undang-undang di tangan manusia. Aku rasa tak adil sangat bila diperlakukan sebegini. Pulau tu lebih dekat dengan kita, secara geografinya, kita lah yang berhak. Pihak mahkamah bukan tak tahu knape Singapura nak sangat pulau tu. Dia nak besar kan sempadan dia lah, dan bila sempadan dah sampai 22km dari pantai terdekat diorang, korang rase la, brape luas kawasan yang diorang boleh tambak, diulangi, TAMBAK!!? Kawasan diorang kecik, penduduk makin ramai...Sure la diorang nak luas kan kawasan daratan diorang.

Nak tau kenapa kita kalah? Hujah utama Sinagpura sepanjang perbicaraan berlangsung ialah, "Oleh kerana Malaysia sebagai 'anak tiri' British yang pasif sedangkan Singapura 'anak angkat' British yang agresif, Singapura mendakwa berhak menjadi pewaris sah pulau-pulau peningalan Empayar British itu. Dalam sistem DEMOKRASI BARAT, kumpulan yang banyak bersuara akan mendapat lebih banyak."

Demokrasi Barat? Demokrasi la sangat...kepala honter jibraun betol. Lepas ni, jangan kasi can la dengan Temasik mangkuk hayun ni. Tau nak main busuk je, tau la 15% rakyat korang GAY! Hahahahahaha....

:: MY COUSINS IN SINGAPORE, NEXT HARI RAYA I WON'T BE SO FORGIVING ::